The Trials and Tribulations of Me and My Rack

I'm a terrible person

2009-02-24T18:05:00.001-08:00

Last Friday, 2/20/09 was the third anniversary of Zeke's passing and I didn't make him a tribute post. I feel horrible. I do miss him terribly. I'm also a terrible person because I didn't post a tribute to Smokey like I did for Zeke after he passed away. There's just so much to say and I'm afraid I'm going to miss something. But this post is for Zeke.

RIP my Beloved! 2/9/96-2/20/06. You may be gone, but you're most certainly not forgotten.

You Say It's Your Birthday!!

2009-02-16T04:14:00.001-08:00

Happy 3rd Birthday Rockstar!!

He may look cute and sweet and innocent, but don't let that sweet face fool you! Anyway, he's 3 years old today. Despite what I say he's a very good boy.

Also today, Smokey has been gone for a month. I can't believe it's already been a month. I still miss him terribly, but it's getting somewhat easier. It's definitely been different around here without him. I no longer have to get up several times in the middle of the night nor do I constantly have to clean up dog pee. It's bittersweet. My life got easier, but I miss him more than I can bear some days. All I can say is RIP bear.

RIP My Beloved Smokey Bear

2009-01-16T17:50:00.001-08:00

June 15, 1996 - January 16, 2009

Agony

2009-01-14T17:15:00.001-08:00

I took Smokey to the vet tonight and was told that it is time. They understand that I will do it when necessary and in the mean time they will try to help me make him more comfortable. Since this picture was taken in September he has lost 7lbs, he is 20lbs now, his eyebrows are all white, he has trouble sitting/laying down and getting comfortable and he has numerous accidents in the house. He can no longer hold it for 8 hours, it's lucky if he holds it 2 hours. We get up in the middle of the night, sometimes twice to go out. I clean up after him, I haven't had a full night's sleep in over 2 years. I do these things because I love him and I can't bear the thought of losing him.

However, I can't bear the thought of him being in pain. The Dr. said he is in pain and that with the tumors things will only get worse. He strains so hard to go to the bathroom he falls over. She said we could put him on 2 more medications to help with the pain and see if the antibiotics will help him at all. But I don't want to do that to him, he's been too good of a dog to let him be in pain or pump him with meds. They ran some tests to see if he has kidney disease and to see if by chance he has an infection that could be helped by antibiotics.

The results will be in tomorrow. My heart will be broken forever.

Here I Am

2008-12-09T17:41:00.000-08:00

As you know I have been in and out of the blogging world. I have been reading your blogs, but I just haven't been writing on mine.

I'm sure you have some burning questions for me, such as how are my dogs. We'll start with Rocky. He is doing okay. He goes for physical therapy every week where he gets a heated ultra sound on his legs, then a massage then he walks for 20 minutes on an underwater treadmill. Sounds like the life doesn't it??? Rocky has some issues and he is pretty shy and he can't seem to relax enough to enjoy the massage. Also, he is very overweight and is on OM dog food, yep, you guessed it, Overweight Management food. He doesn't seem to be losing very fast. W

Now on to Smokey. His story isn't as happy. He has good days and bad days. He barely eats and he's down to about 19lbs now. He was about 28lbs last year. He also has many accidents. He can barely hold it. Then on some days he does eat, if he doesn't feel like eating I make him some hamburger or something yummy. But he's still my sweet baby and the thought of losing him kills me. Even though the accidents and the numerous trips outside drive me nuts, I still can't live without him.

Anyway, not much been going on with me. Just been working and shopping for the holidays, which I am done with!!

By the way, if you're a dog person and you love to read, you must read The Story of Edgar Sawtelle!! It is a MUST READ.

More Bad News

2008-10-11T10:39:00.000-07:00

So today I took Rocky to the vet. He is 2 years old and has severe and degenerative arthritis in both of his front paws and issues with his back knees. He may need surgery on his back knees at some point and he may need physical therapy. They said they can give me medication to manage his pain. But he is 2 years old and now he is facing a life time of pain.

I don't know what to do. He already has a lot of damage from the arthritis and there is nothing they can do for his front legs. I don't know if I can subject him to a life time of pain. So not only am I going to lose Smokey soon, but now it's possible that I may lose Rocky all too soon. The dog has some strikes against him, he's aggressive and now this. My poor boys.

I bought them Halloween costumes and I am going to enter them into a costume contest. Smokey is going to be a police dog and Rocky is going to be a convict. I hope they win some prize. Here are their pictures.

Potpourri

2008-09-26T15:50:00.000-07:00

No, this is not a post about potpourri, it's a post about a few different things. LisaB left me a comment that she missed me, so I thought I would write a post.

I am so over the guy in the last post. He is the one with issues, not me. Anyway, he told me he still wants to see me casually (ya right), so that made me feel better. But I am moving on. I've gone on a few dates with some nice men, but no connection yet. I am still hopeful!

Today is my mother's 60th birthday and we have some relatives coming up to surprise her, this should be a very fun weekend. I can't wait to see them. Oh and they will be staying here with me, so I spent 5 hours cleaning my house today. What fun!

I do have some bad news. My beloved Smokey is not doing so well. I have watched him get worse over the last few months. The good news is that he is still happy, he eats, he plays and he is there to greet me at the door every night when I come home, he also walks me to the door every morning before I leave. He does have accidents, we have to go outside A LOT even in the middle of the night. It's tough. He strains hard to go to the bathroom.

The only options that I have left for him are to take him to an oncologist. However, I have decided that since he is 12 years old and has a heart murmur that I am just going to let him live out the rest of what time he has left happy. I'm afraid that if I put him through chemo it will make him sick and miserable and who knows if it will even work or will even prolong his life. This is one of the toughest decisions I have made, but I've decided that I love him too much to put him through hell for my own selfishness.

I will say though that it's really hard. I can't even bear the thought of not seeing his sweet little face everyday. It breaks my heart, but I feel deep down it's for the best not to put him through it.

Anyway, I have been reading all of your blogs and keeping up to date on your lives.

Heart Broken

2008-08-04T16:12:00.000-07:00

It's been a long time since I blogged. Here I am once again with a downer post. But if I can't use my blog for some cathartic writing, what's the point of having it?

For starters, I am actually fine, Smokey is doing well. Rocky is an obnoxious pain in the ass currently on anti-anxiety meds. My condo is awesome. I just finished painting the kitchen and I'm working my way around re-painting all the trim. All that's left to paint are the bathrooms and the ceilings. But I have time.

So today I find myself heart broken once again. I started seeing someone again about a year ago that I used to see and we have been casually dating and having fun. So now that a year has gone by I asked him if there was going to be more between us. After putting off the discussion for a month, he told me today, no, there won't be anymore and he should have told me 6 months ago. Yeah, that's right, he's been leading me on for 6 months. Nice huh?

He and I have been friends for a few years now, but I told him that if there wasn't going to be anymore then we couldn't be friends that it would hurt me too much. So after he told me no, he asked if we could still be friends, told me he cares about me and he will never forget me and all the good times and intimate times we have shared.

It's a good thing I worked from home today since I spent the entire day crying and trying to work. My question is, why aren't I good enough? Why can't I find someone who just wants to be with me? Why??

Ok, I'm signing off, I can hardly type through the tears. I hope everyone is well.

You Say It's Your Birthday!!

2008-04-23T18:14:00.000-07:00

Today is my birthday. This is how I celebrated. I woke up, had coffee watched yesterday's Oprah and went back to sleep for about 3.5 hours. I woke up to 3 voicemails and 2 text messages.

After showering and having lunch, I started cleaning my spare bedroom. Didn't get very far because I realized I needed packing tape and I decided I would go get some packing tape and treat myself to a birthday ice cream. I went outside to my car and discovered that I had a flat tire.

An hour later the road side assistance kid is changing my tire and he is peering into the tire well and turns to me and says, you need front brakes and I definitely wouldn't wait. Oh great. New brakes. I called the dealership just so I have something to compare to and they said it would be $500 installed. Wow. I went to VIP, got my tire fixed for $4 and left with the tire fixed and the spare back in the trunk. Yaye.

I went over to my brothers and they gave me a step ladder for my birthday. Don't feel bad, I did ask for it. We are actually going to celebrate my birthday on Sunday.

So I am on vacation this week and have spent 2 entire days being a human vegetable and damn if it didn't feel good. I sent the dogs away so I could relax and get some rest.

To sum up, I spent my birthday cleaning, sleeping and eating by myself. Go me. Oh and crying, but don't worry, I think that's the PMS, not something more serious.

Happy Birthday to me! Does anyone know any single guys for me?

You're All Heart!

2008-03-27T17:07:00.000-07:00

Hello!! I know it has been a very long time since I last posted. Way too long. It's been interesting. I bought and moved into a condo that I absolutely loved. I am out of the ghetto and it feels so good. I take my dogs for walks around the neighborhood. Smokey is doing well. He has to pee a lot, so we take a lot of walks, but that's a small price to pay and definitely beats the alternative of not having him. Rocky is well, he is 15 pounds overweight so we are working on that.

Anyway, I am here to ask for your support. I am doing the 5 mile walk for the American Heart Association on May 4 and I need your donations. You can donate via my website. The website only accepts donations of $25 or more, please let me know if you would like to donate a different amount and I will tell you where you can send a check. Any and all donations would be greatly appreciated.

Thank you!!

I'm Sorry

2007-10-20T17:39:00.000-07:00

But it's another woe is me post.

Smokey has cancer and in a best case scenario, I could have him for another year.

But let's back up to the hell that has been my life. Last weekend, Smokey had diarrhea that turned bloody. Now when I say bloody, I mean pools of blood. It looked like someone was murdered in my house there was so much blood. I called the vet and we went to the emergency clinic, they tossed it up to the meds he was on for the tumor and they sent us home with some medication. The next day was no better, in fact it was worse. I called the emergency clinic and told them that they needed to admit him. They did. Turned out he was hemorrhaging. He was suffering from something called HGE.

It was very scary. But I do have to say that he is doing much better and has made a nice recovery. Now we just have to go back to treating the cancer.

Needless to say I'm very sad, but I will treasure every moment I have with him just like I have treasured the last 11 years with him. I wish I had some digital pictures from when he was a puppy, he was the cutest puppy ever.

Anyway, hope you're all doing well.

Am I Back?

2007-09-28T16:56:00.000-07:00

I can't say for sure. Thank you for checking in on me while I was on hiatus.

I have some really good news, I bought a condo and I'm moving to a nice neighborhood and will be working .8 miles from my work. Yes, that was .8 miles. I'm very excited. I'll be painting and packing all weekend as I'm moving next Friday.

I do have some bad news. I'm afraid that Smokey is not doing so well. He has 3 tumors in his bladder. One of the tumors is causing problems in that he is having trouble urinating and he also urinates a lot of blood. The tumor causing the problem is inoperable. We're going to try some medication to try and shrink the tumors to see if that helps. Hopefully, it will help. So, once again, please keep your fingers crossed for my baby.

Rocky is doing well, he's still a nut, but very comical and very sweet.

I have nothing else new to report. I don't know when I'll be back to post again, but I'll still continue to check your posts in the mean time.

Smokey-The Results

2007-06-30T16:14:00.000-07:00

Smokey's tests results came in and he doesn't have cancer!! Yaye! Thanks again for all the love.

I hope you're all enjoying your summer, I know that I am.

Smokey-The Update

2007-06-23T14:16:00.000-07:00

Thank you all for your kind words and your thoughts for my boy. I brought him home Thursday night, with a shaved head and one less tooth. Unfortunately, he did not have a good first night home, he seemed to be in pain as he was unable to lay down and get comfortable. He was up all night pacing and whining. He also had diarrhea. So it was not a good first night. I stayed home from work on Friday to be with him and he wasn't much better on Friday. However, today he is doing a lot better. I should have the test results back in a week. Here's a picture of him with his shaved head. He looks so mad.

And here's a random picture of Rocky (the bad seed) sitting up sticking his tongue out at me.

I Need You!

2007-06-13T15:56:00.000-07:00

My beloved Smokey has a tumor on top of his head. He is going to have surgery to have it removed on the 20th. He is turning 11 on the 16th.

Please send him your good thoughts. Please. He's my baby and I'm not ready to say good-bye just yet.

And now for the details. I found a growth on his head, the doctor took a sample and said it's definitely a tumor and has to be removed asap. So once they remove it they will have it tested to find out if it's benign or malignant and make sure that they got it all.

So that's it for now. So please send us your thoughts, we would truly appreciate it. To help with those thoughts here is a picture of my baby. Thank you!

You're going to love this

2007-05-31T15:55:00.000-07:00

I'm back. I was taking a little break and reading all of your blogs.

I was on the phone with my mother the other day and she told me the funniest story that I would like to share with you.

My mother picked out a muffin and brought it up to the cash register. The cashier rings up the muffin, looks down and says, "idiot." Now my mother is standing there thinking to herself, "Did this woman just call me an idiot? "OMG, she doesn't know me, why would she call me an idiot?" So she says, "Did you just call me an idiot?" The cashier looks up and says, "I said 88, as in 88 cents."

So as you can imagine I now call my mother 88.

I Need Help!

2007-05-13T03:57:00.000-07:00

I need your help. I have one cousin graduating High School and one Graduating from College. What should I get them? I need gift ideas. Now keep in mind that these girls are rich and don't actually need anything.

The one that is graduating from High School is going to college at GW and the one is graduating from GW and will be staying in DC after graduation.

All of your suggestions would greatly be appreciated. Thank you!!

How I Spent My Birthday

2007-04-24T05:03:00.000-07:00

I had an awesome birthday! Thank you all for your birthday wishes.
Let me share with you how I spent the day. I had the day off from work. I got up early, went to the gym, came home took a shower and then I went to pick up my niece. I picked my niece up around 11 and I took her to see where I work. She loved it there. We had lunch in the nice big cafeteria, where they made her chicken fingers because she asked nicely. Everyone loved her. How could you not.
Then we went to the Anheusher Busch Plant to see the Clydesdales and the carriages. Man they were huge. My niece was in awe and so was I.

After the Clydesdales, we went out for ice cream. The ice cream's are huge at this place. A small is like a large anywhere else. My niece kept telling me that this was my best birthday ever and that she wants to do this with me every year.

After ice cream, we went to the movies to see Meet the Robinsons. This movie was very cute and she loved it.

I had a great day! Happy Birthday to me!

And In Other News

2007-04-19T17:43:00.000-07:00

Monday is my birthday. Because I believe that it is a sin to work on your birthday I have taken three days off from work. I'm going to spend the day with my niece, like gal pals. I'm going to take her to where I work and show her off and then I'm going to take her to lunch and perhaps a movie depending on how well she's holding up.

Stop by and wish me a happy birthday, can never receive too many birthday wishes. Everyone tells me that I shouldn't make a big deal about my birthday because I'm getting older. I say embrace it! It will happen with or without you, so you might as well enjoy it.

Happy Birthday to me!

Virginia Tech

2007-04-16T16:45:00.000-07:00

My heartfelt condolences to all of those that lost someone or were touched by this horrific, tragic event.

My thoughts and prayers are with you.

American Heart Association

2007-04-07T14:21:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone!! My don't you all look lovely today? Yes I am buttering you up for something. I'm doing the annual walk for the American Heart Association and I am going to be begging for donations.

If you would like to donate to the cause and support me in my 5 mile walk, I would greatly appreciate it. Rocky will be taking the journey with me. Please email me if you would like to donate and I'll send you the link to my personal homepage. Thank you very much in advance!!!!

Apparently you can't donate less than $25 on the website, so, if you would like to donate and any and all amounts are greatly appreciated please email me and I can give you the information to send a check.

Here Comes the Rant (It's a Long One, But So Worth It)

2007-04-02T16:02:00.000-07:00

Now that I've been home for a full day I'm ready to rant about my trip. Let me say this before I go into the rant itself. My week (once I arrived in MN) was amazing. I made some incredible friends that I will hopefully have for the rest of my life. The week was very intense. I connected with a group of women that I spent everyday with all day. We sat together, we worked on a project together, we ate together, we shopped together and we never fought or disagreed or got on one another's nerves. We were inseparable for 6 days 12-15 hours a day. It was amazing. Oh and there were 8 of us that got along this well.

With that said, let me tell you about the travel hell that I experienced through NorthWorst Airlines.

I left for my trip a day early just in case there were some travel issues. I was supposed to have a direct flight on the 24th leaving NH at 5:20pm. You cannot check in online until 24 hours before your flight leaves. So, Saturday morning, I'm finishing packing my last minute items and I remember that I wanted to check in online. So I view my flight information and I no longer have a direct flight and my new flight leaves at 4:16pm. Fortunately, I still had plenty of time. I call NWA and they say, yep your flight was canceled and I say, no one told me and the wonderful customer care man says, that's not my problem.

So, my flight takes off reasonably on time and yet somehow arrives in Detroit a little later than planned. I have 6 minutes to run thru the terminal from Gate 1 to Gate 66. Oh and I had to pee. I take off running, in clogs. I get to the gate sweating and in pain from trying to run in clogs just in time to board. They did push the flight back 10 minutes so the people from my flight could make the connection to MN.

Now, picture this. We're sitting on this plane and it is packed. They finish loading the luggage and we push back from the gate and as we're sitting there on the runway, the power on the plane goes out, taking the engines with it. So, the pilot comes on and says, folks, we have lost auxiliary power and um, we kind of need that. So, they tow us back to the gate and about an hour later we're ready to leave. Yes, we're ready to take off on the faulty plane. However, when maintenance came out to fix the problem they didn't bring enough fuel to restart the plane. So we waited some more. Oh and because there was no power, there was no air and the plane was HOT and packed. We arrived safely in MN about an hour and 45 minutes late. Not bad for me because it was the end of my trip, however, most people on the plane missed their connections and for others 6 connections were being held.

Now, let's fast forward to my departure. I had a direct flight that was leaving Sunday because I thought the program was ending late on Saturday. Turned out it was ending at noon, so I switched my flight so I could get home at 8 on Saturday night. I get to the airport with all of my new friends and we all say our goodbyes and everyone goes to their respective airports, except one girl, she was flying NWA with me. So, we check our bags, my flight is at 3 and hers is at 5, and it's now 1 so we were going to go have lunch together once we got thru security. She happens to look down before we leave the check in area and notices that her flight is scheduled to leave at 6:40am the next day and no one had notified her. She's got a 2 month old at home and she becomes hysterical because she wants to go home and see him. Can't blame her. I comfort her and ask the agents if she can get on my flight, because mine is going to Detroit and her connecting flight was still on for that night. She was able to get on my flight and we were both ecstatic over this news. However, this plane had a mechanical problem that was fixed, but since the plane was listed as delayed, the luggage was never loaded. So, the plane left an hour late and I missed my connecting flight by 7 minutes with no more flights out of Detroit until morning.

NWA was going to put me up in a hotel, so I ask them to pull my luggage and they tell me that they requested it and to go to baggage claim. I go to baggage claim and while I'm waiting, I see my friend's luggage going round the carousel. Now, there are two things odd about that. One, her luggage was supposed to go to SC and two, she was told that her luggage wouldn't be leaving until Sunday because it was checked in to go on her new flight and she flew standby. I go to the NWA baggage services and go through the whole story and they come and pull her bag. I call her to come down and claim her luggage. She does and then she had to go back and check her luggage in again and go back through security. Turned out that her luggage was short sited and was tagged to go back to MN.

I get to the Best Western in MI and it looks like a wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy off the strip Vegas hotel. I literally had to throw my body against my room door to get in because it was warped from the pool. I looked like I was breaking into my room. The maintenance man had to help me get in the first time. It was bad.

Anyway, I got on my flight on Sunday morning and came home safely with no delays and I made sure to spend every penny that NWA gave me in vouchers. When I arrived home I had a $7 voucher left over that I used to buy my mom and her boyfriend food with when they came to pick me up. I didn't want NWA to have a dime back.

I've tried to call NWA several times to calmly, rationally, discuss my trip and due to very high call volumes, they have been unable to complete my calls. Hmmm, is anyone else as shocked about that as I am? I didn't think so.

I'm Home!!

2007-04-01T16:24:00.000-07:00

But I'm too pissed off and too tired to blog about my trip. So, just know that I'm home safe and sound and that there will be one hell of a post to follow regarding my trip.

OFF TO MINNEAPOLIS

2007-03-22T17:11:00.000-07:00

I'm heading off to MN this weekend. I know that you're all jealous. Don't be. I'm not going for vacation, I'm going for a school trip. It's residency week. According to the schedule I'll be in session from 8 am to 9 pm every day for the entire 6 days that I'm there. See, I told you not to be jealous.

Before I go, I figured I would tell you all of the exciting things that have been going on. Well, there isn't much. Rocky graduated from Intermediate Obedience class. Barely. But he did it. He also threw up on my bed at 3am today. Exciting stuff I tell you. He's also destroyed some of my shoes and all of my paper. Good thing he's cute or I would have strangled him.

Let's see what else. I was hit on by a woman last weekend and a fireman. The other night my neighbor came over to talk to me. I tried to avoid looking at his face with the missing teeth and as I was averting my eyes I noticed that his fly was down. Also, he talks like Farmer Fran from The Waterboy. Good stuff.

Well, that's all. I will catch up with you when I get back from MN. Take care.

Speaking of Zeke

2007-03-05T16:17:00.000-08:00

I have been thinking about my beloved Zeke over the past few days and I was thinking of sitting down and have a heart to heart with his ashes. Yeah I know. Leave me alone.

Today I came home and there was a giant package in my mailbox from CT from a woman who's name I didn't recognize. So I ripped open the package and as I was opening it, I knew exactly what it was.

It was a portrait of Zeke. It was hand painted by a woman who worked at the vet's office. A woman, who I never actually spoke to or met. She painted a picture of him from one that I had given them. Along with it was a note saying how he was the sweetest, gentlest loving dog ever and that she missed him. It's bizarre that this showed up around the one year anniversary of his passing. I opened the portrait and I completely lost it. Here you go:

Bitter Sweet

2007-02-21T17:16:00.000-08:00

Thank you all for your warm birthday wishes for my little Rock Star. February is bitter sweet for me. I celebrate the birth of my beloved little Rock Star on the 16th. But on the 20th, I mourn the death of my beloved gentle giant, Zeke. He passed one year ago yesterday. I still miss him everyday. I'm grateful for all of the fond memories that I have of him and of the love and joy that he brought into my life. Please enjoy these photos of my beloved.

Rest in peace my handsome boy!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROCKY!!

2007-02-15T17:33:00.000-08:00

My baby is turning 1 tomorrow. Please be sure to wish him a very happy birthday. Here are some pictures of him growing over the last year going from 5lbs to 24lbs. Enjoy!!

Isn't he beautiful? Happy Birthday Rock Star!!

Little Known Facts About Me

2007-02-08T15:38:00.000-08:00

I am too tired to really post or to be thoughtful or funny at all. So, I thought that I would try to be entertaining and post some odds and ends facts about myself.

I take my puppy to daycare.
I weigh myself every single day obsessively
I randomly drop peanut butter on the floor as a treat for the dogs
I once stepped in the peanut butter that I threw on the floor, so I turned my shoe over and let the dogs clean it off. Ok, it wasn't a shoe, it was a slipper that has never been outside my apartment.
I once rode on an elephant at a circus
Every week I go grocery shopping in the "interesting" part of town and every week I get hit on by at least one random guy
I Tivo all of my shows, I haven't watched real TV in 2 months

I'm sure that there's more, but I can't think of anything now. I'm certainly not going to tag anyone, but I'd love to read some more of your quirks.

Not For the Faint of Heart

2007-02-01T17:02:00.000-08:00

LB, you may not want to read this post, in fact any animal love may not want to. But I have to write about it and get it off my chest.

Monday night I took the dogs out for their final walk at 9:30 p.m. The people who live directly across the street from me have a beagle. This dog is neglected and is often times running loose in my neighborhood. I live on a very busy street for my area. Anyway, back to the story.

I'm walking my dogs and this beagle comes running across the road and is barking and growling at us. Yep, you guessed it, he's loose. I put the dogs in the foyer of my building and I go back outside to try and catch the dog. The dog is not social or nice. It came after me with its teeth out and growling. I went back inside. The dog was barking and growling and I honestly thought that my dumb ass neighbors would hear the dog and would come get him.

11 p.m. rolls around and the dog is still out there barking and running around. Now I'm thinking, someone has to hear him and bring him inside. Then the barking stops and I say, whew, finally. My wonderful dogs wake me up at 4 a.m. to go out. We go outside and we mind our own business when suddenly, the beagle comes tearing out of nowhere barking and growling at us. We go back inside and now I'm very angry that this dog has been out all night long.

At 8 a.m. I took the dogs outside for their final walk before I leave for work. I go outside and the dog is still out there. I take my dogs back inside. I bring some cookies outside. I'm trying to lure the dog. He is still growling at me. I throw the cookies at him. I go over and knock on the people's door. No answer. I check on the dog, he is now burrowed in the dirt shivering and shaking and eating leaves. I am really burning up now. I call the police. They put me through to Animal Control, I get an answering machine. I call back and ask for a person. I tell them that someone has to come out here and help this dog. I call my boss and tell him that I am going to be late because I need to stand outside until the cops come and make sure that this dog does not get hit by a car. My boss tells me he's angry, but not at me. Everyone that I work with, all 5 of them, have dogs and are huge animal lovers.

The cops come and the cop really bangs on the door and after 3 minutes, someone opens the door. The dog sees the door open and runs inside. The cop goes inside as well. I left for work. Before I left, I made sure that the guy saw me. I hope he knows that I called the cops and that I will again and again if I see that dog being mistreated.

I get to work and my toes are numb and my fingers are numb as well from standing outside for an hour waiting for the cops.

I hope my dogs know just how good they've got it.

This Morning's Freak Out/Panic

2007-01-27T06:11:00.000-08:00

My dog's never let me sleep in. They usually wake me up around 4 or 5 in the morning and then we're up for the day because now they want to eat and play. Today being Saturday I wanted to sleep in since I was exhausted from the weekend.

So this morning I kicked the dogs out of the room and put up the gate to block them from scratching on my door. I also closed the bathroom door really tight. Rocky likes to go in and pick the paper and toilet paper rolls out of the trash.

I go back to sleep in peace for 2.5 hours. I get up it's 8:30 and it's eerily quiet in the apartment. I walk up to the gate and there's Smokey to greet me, but no Rocky. However, I do see Rocky's path of destruction. There's a bottle of nail polish on the floor, a pen some torn up paper. But, there's no Rocky.

I walk into the living room expecting to see the pup on the coffee table or on the couch unable to get down. But he's not there. The dogs only had the kitchen and the living room and he wasn't in either place. So I start calling him and I am trying to suppress the panic I feel rising. I am calling him and offering him treats and he's not coming out. I am moving boxes looking every where and he's no where to be found. I am in full panic mode.

I am now walking in circles and freaking out. Just for the heck of it I decide to check the bathroom, even though the door is still shut tight just like I left it. So, I open the door nice and slowly and there, is my sweet (read devil) puppy looking up at me with his innocent eyes (read mischievous, devilish). He had jumped on the door and opened it (like he does when I'm in the shower) and then either jumped on it or leaned against it and shut it again. Little devil.

The mystery was now solved. I called my mom and she thought it was very funny and that it was his way of teaching me a lesson for leaving him to play by himself.

I can't be the only person something like this has happened to. So, tell me, what has caused you a panic when looking for something when it was right in front of your face.

Weekend Update By Me

2007-01-21T15:58:00.000-08:00

I went on a date this weekend with a guy I met in NJ over Thanksgiving. We met up in Mystic, CT and went to the casino for the day. It was our second date and it was 10 hours long. We stayed in the same hotel (separate rooms of course).

I have to say that 10 hours flew by very quickly. However, I do not recommend a 10 hour second date. Now, I know what the comments are going to say. Everyone is going to ask what he's like who is and they're going to ask for all the details.

I will give you this, he has all his teeth, a great sense of humor and is extremely nice. That's all you get for now.

So, we're at the casino and we're sitting at this cafe and just talking, when a woman walks up to me and starts asking me questions. Of course she has a very thick accent and I can't understand a thing that she's saying. So she asks me if I'm Louisa or something like that. I tell her no and then she asks me if my date is my boyfriend. I say no. She says good, he's too old for you. You're a beautiful woman, he's too old. Then she went over to my date and asked if he was married. He of course didn't understand what she said and he's not sure what she asked so he says, I'm not sure. Then he told her that he was a priest and that's why he's not married.

I told him that strange people are drawn to me for some odd reason and he said it's the same thing with him. So, that should make for an interesting pairing.

Let the comments begin.

6 Weird Things

2007-01-16T18:14:00.000-08:00

Marty tagged me with this. For some reason he wants to know six weird things about me. So here they are:

1. I am OCD about only one or two things.
2. I am obsessed with my DVR.
3. I take my dog to daycare.
4. Sometimes I imagine going on a crime spree but then I realize all the ways that I'll get caught.
5. I want a relationship, but I am petrified of commitment.
6. I am paralyzed by my fear of bees.

Now, I'm not going to tag anyone with this since everyone has already been tagged and LB hates them.

Long Time No Blog

2007-01-14T16:01:00.000-08:00

I have been busier than a one armed wallpaper hanger. However, I can't tell you what I've been doing or rather, I have nothing to show for all my busyness.

I've been busy with school and with work. Rocky starts obedience class this Tuesday and he also will start daycare once a week to help absorb some of his puppy energy. I thought it would be best to help expend some of his energy while I still have some belongings. So far he has eaten 2 candy canes and destroyed many, many pieces of paper, some important, some not.

What else? I've been going to the gym 5 days a week and I'm still trying to have a social life, which is coming along slowly.

I've been very busy watching all of the shows that I have DVR'd. My DVR and my remote car starter were my best presents to myself.

I just discovered that I need to do a Residency within the next 3 months. I think that I have to go to MN. Very exciting, first UT and now MN. I can hardly contain myself.

Hmmm....nothing else to tell. I've been trying to to keep up on your blogs, but I'm falling behind. I still love you and find you all wildly entertaining.

Happy New Year!

2007-01-01T15:05:00.000-08:00

I spent New Year's Eve at my sister in law's. She had a little party. My 4 year old niece made it until midnight. I barely did. It was fun.

Did anyone watch the Dick Clark's Rockin New Year's Eve? He looks good, but sounds so awful. Maybe it's time to pass the torch.

I surfed some blog's looking for New Year's Resolutions and I didn't see any. Does anyone make them anymore? Should we even bother? I am going to bother. I'm going to make some this year and see what happens. So here they are in no particular order:

Back up my laptop hard drive.
No more talking to or texting the Ex.
Get more exercise.
Eat better.
Lose weight.
Actually go on a date when someone asks regardless of my self image at the time.

Now, let me hear some of yours.

Ever Just Have a Feeling?

2006-12-24T14:26:00.000-08:00

When the dogs woke me up at 4 am this morning, I knew today was going to be a very bad day. I already hate December and New Year's Day and now Christmas Eve Day will forever be ruined.

I got up this morning, walked the dogs and sat down to have my coffee. I booted up my laptop. Well, I tried to boot up my laptop. Something was horribly wrong. So I spent 3 hours messing with it and with the help of a new friend I was able to save my documents. I took the laptop to Best Buy and dropped it off for service that cost $200 and will take up to 5 days. The money isn't that big of an issue, it's the amount of time. I need my laptop for school. Right now I'm using my PC that barely works. The PC is set up on a nightstand, yes a nightstand, not even a table and I am sitting on the tupperware container that holds my puppy's dog food with the keyboard on my lap and the mouse on my knee. Could it get much worse? Yes it could. I'm going to lose all the applications and pretty much everything that was on my laptop. That sucks.

Oh and my brother and my sister in law officially separated today. They have been having marital problems for the last year or so and I guess it finally got really ugly. We're all supposed to get tgether tomorrow night for Christmas dinner. Can you say UNCOMFORTABLE? Should be fun right? The really hard thing for me about them separating is that my niece and nephew are at the EXACT same ages that my brother and I were at when my father left. Scary isn't it?

Well, I just had to get that out. Those of you that do celebrate Christmas, have a very Merry one and those that don't...have a great day. Until next time....

It's That Time of the Month

2006-12-21T17:14:00.000-08:00

No, not THAT time. It's the time where I make a new post and provide you with some updates of the excitement that is my life.

I went on a date. It sucked.

I got a remote car starter. It rocks.

I got a space heater for my bedroom. I no longer shiver when I get out of bed.

My puppy is now 10 months old and is 22 lbs. He has been raising hell around the apartment.

I haven't gotten any in 11 months. I'm very grumpy.

All holiday shopping was completed two weeks before the holiday. I was very happy.

My niece and nephew loved the presents I got them. I was happy.

I just remembered I haven' t gotten any in 11 months. I'm grumpy again.

Hope you all have a very Happy Holiday season. Happy Hanukkah. Merry Christmas.

My Obituary

2006-12-10T17:16:00.000-08:00

'What will your obituary say?' at QuizGalaxy.com

I got this from CP's blog. Check her out she's a riot.

Smokey Is

2006-12-03T16:16:00.000-08:00

going to be just fine. Isn't he beautiful? He's lost a little weight, but the vet said that he needed to lose a bit and now he's at a good weight so there's no concern there. The lumps that I felt on him were just Lipomas.

Thank you all for your well wishes. Now, if you could also keep my cousin in your thoughts and prayers for her upcoming surgery.

In other news...I was walking the dogs today and a man stopped his car to talk to me. He gave me his phone number and asked me out. I was flattered. I took the number, I doubt that I'll call him, but it was flattering. This makes the third man to stop by while I was walking my dogs and ask me out in the 10 months that I've lived here. I've declined all of them, but damn it feels good. My sister in law wants to know what I wear to walk the dogs and I'm sure that you are wondering the same thing. I was wearing jeans and a turtleneck.

My next class starts tomorrow and from what I can see, it's very labor intensive and it's 6 credits. Wish me luck with this one.

Is everyone done their holiday shopping?

News From Beyond

2006-11-28T17:09:00.000-08:00

Well not really. I've been fairly busy. I went to NJ for Thanksgiving and had an unbelievably wonderful time. I had fun seeing lots of cousins and we did a lot of fun things.

My 17 year old cousin has a growth on her jaw bone and will be going under general anthesia to get in there and see what's going on. She may have to lose the three surrounding teeth and she will also need bone reconstruction surgery as this growth has destroyed some bone. So we're very concerned. My grandfather died of bone cancer at 50 and my Aunt (her mother) 1 had cancerous cysts on her ovaries. So, cancer runs in the family.

I'm a little worried. I was petting Smokey this morning and discovered a very large mass on his ribs under his skin. I called the vet and we have an appointment tomorrow. Please keep your fingers crossed for me and Smokey. I know he's a geriatric, but I already lost my doberman earlier this year and I couldn't bear to lose another one.

So, we have a few tough things to get thru. If you don't mind, please say an extra little prayer for us. I would greatly appreciate that.

And now I have some sweet news. I went to my cousins house (mansion would be more appropriate) for Thanksgiving. His wife is Philipino and they've been married for awhile now and they have no kids. Anyway, she has family in the Philipines and she has these two little girl cousins, 6 and 7 who's mother abandoned them and their father died last year. So she and my cousin adopted these little girls and took them from rags to riches, got them tutors, beautiful clothes and toys. You name it. These girls are so sweet and loving, I can't even express it. I walked in having never met them and they asked me who I was. I said I'm your cousin and they said okay and just started hugging me. It was just so wonderful.

School is now over for this term. I received a 96% in my Stats class and 91% in my Writing class.
I hope all is well and please, leave me lots of comments, I love them.

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!!!!

2006-11-21T04:26:00.000-08:00

I'm heading off to NJ for the week to celebrate Thanksgiving with some different family members. I love my family up here, but they are a bunch of downers. So I'm off to have some laughs and some fun. The dogs are at the kennel and while I miss them, it's kind of nice to wake up naturally.

Anyway, this was my last week of school for my first time, which is awesome, such a relief. Next term I'll only have to take one class, which is a bonus.

I took my niece to see Flushed Away. I wanted to see Happy Feet, but you can't argue with a 4 year old. She was so sweet, when we were leaving she said, "That was great, thank you so much for taking me." Yes, she's a sweet 4 year old. Actually, my favorite thing that she said was when I was opening her water bottle for her, she clutched it to her chest and said, "You have your own right?" In other words, she didn't want to have to share with me.

Unfortunately, I don't have anything exciting or any breaking news to report. So, I just wanted to wish you all a very Happy Thanksgiving!!!

I'll be back in touch when I get back!! Much love!

I'm Back .....From Outer Space!!

2006-11-13T17:45:00.000-08:00

Actually, just Salt Lake City, but it feels like I was on another planet. I have to say it was beautiful out there. Everyone was really nice and I was right in down town SLC so I walked everywhere. I walked to the mall, the Temple Square and the best part was when I walked to work and back to the hotel everyday. Just something so great about that. It was a nice clean area with mountains bordering on the East and the West. It was beautiful and I had gorgeous weather all week as well. It was bout 70 and just beautiful.

I met a lot of nice people and I had a good time. My flights were awesome there and back. There were no delays or any other problems. So that was great. I wasn't even the slightest bit homesick. I went to watch the Mormon Tabernacle Choir rehearse. They were awesome. Anyway, I had a good time and I'm glad to be back home.

However, when I got home I went on a date with my ex. Yes the same one that broke my heart and left me crushed for a long time. I dressed incredibly sexy and sat down in front of him and showed him that he didn't break me. I showed him that I'm happy and that I'm soooooooo over him. It may not have been the best thing or the right thing to do, but hey, it worked for me. Plus I made him pay for dinner.

Okay back to my trip. The highlight of my trip? My brand new pink 4GB Nano IPod. I love it. There was no in flight entertainment on my connecting flight so my IPod came in unbelievably handy. I think that I will hold a contest next post of songs that you think I should add to my IPod.

Sorry I haven't been around lately. I only have 2 weeks left of school, this week and next. I may have actually made it thru the entire term in one piece.

Count Rockula

2006-10-25T15:50:00.000-07:00

Last night was the Tricks for Treats at Petsmart. My niece and nephew came and so did my mom and sister in law. They had cake and snacks for the people and treats for the dogs. There were so many cute costumes. My niece had a blast. It was a lot of fun and I'm glad I went. My niece walked in the parade with me and she just had so much fun she didn't want to leave. Despite having a double ear infection and a sinus infection, I had a blast too.
Without further ado, here are some pictures. No, those aren't my legs and that rottweiler is Lexi, she showed up late to the party and her "mom" wanted to have her picture taken with Rocky. My mom took tons of pictures that I will post when I get them.

Yes, I am still alive!

2006-10-19T16:37:00.000-07:00

I'm alive and well. I've just been super busy. School is winding down, I have about 4 weeks left and all of a sudden the workload has tripled. I've been hitting the gym at least 3-5 times a week and I've been visiting everyone else's blogs. I just haven't had time to blog myself. You guys have been keeping me very busy.

Work is great. I still love my new job. I love my dogs. School is crazy as I mentioned. Once this term is over I'll get to only take one class at a time.

Halloween is coming up and I'm excited. Rocky will be wearing his Dracula costume and participating in Petsmart's Tricks for Treats and he will be in Petco's Halloween Costume contest. I'm going a little overboard, but I paid $15 for that costume and I want my money's worth.

I'm also trying to meet someone. A little unsuccessfully, but still, I'm giving it a shot.

So, that's about all I've got. I've been keeping up on your lives and everyone seems well. I'm glad for that.

Would anyone like to do another guest post for me? Please?

WTF is This World Coming To???!!!!!

2006-10-02T17:02:00.000-07:00

I have no idea. I'm struggling to comprehend the violence that seems to have taken over this world. Three violent, deadly school shootings in one week?? What are the odds and why??

Some man walks into a school and senselessly kills a 16 year old girl. I was reading on CNN that her family would like people to go out and commit random acts of kindness to combat this. I'm still trying to figure out what I'm going to do as I plan on honoring that young girl who was killed by a coward as she tried to flee.

A 15 year old boy walks into his school and guns down his principal. Both of their lives are now over.

And today, a man walks into an Amish school and executes three innocent, young girls, ages 6 to 13. It makes me sick. This man has three children of his own, that he probably would have protected with his life, yet he took away someone else's babies. And for what? CNN says it was to avenge something that happened to him 2 decades ago. TWO FUCKING DECADES AGO???? These precious little lives were not even born back then.

I go back and forth debating whether or not I actually want kids and then something like this happens and I decide that I don't want kids. I don't think that I can bring children into this horrible world. This world has become horrible. I'm sure that this feeling will pass, but I just don't understand this horror. I think of my niece and of all my friends who have young kids. How terrifying something like this must be.

My heart goes out to the families of these poor children.

It's a great day to be alive!!

2006-09-24T10:16:00.000-07:00

I got a new job within my company. I can't even tell you how happy this makes me. I got a job that is not sales related and I'm still with my company. I'm very happy.

Last night we celebrated my mom's birthday. We had a nice dinner and a lot of laughs. Unfortunately, they were all at my mother's expense. My poor mom. She gets her sayings mixed up and they always come out wrong. She was telling us what a wiz she has become with her texting. She told us that she even uses explanation points, commas and periods. We all erupted with laughter and then laughed even harder at the fact that she didn't know that they're actually called exclaimation points. It was too funny.

Also, I found a costume for Rocky. Tell me how cute is he? If you can't guess, he's Dracula.

Also, I love the fall. My one year old nephew says my name now, even though I've never heard him, my brother swears he says it. School is also going incredibly well.

Oh and I almost forgot, thank you Dutchie for reminding me that I had to take a picture of my TP that I won from Marty's contest. Here's the next best thing to a picture of me, my boys with the TP.

I hope that you are all doing fabulously well.

Updates

2006-09-16T17:01:00.000-07:00

It's been a crazy couple of weeks. The tapeworm is gone. Thankfully. Today I had a massage, awesome. School is crazy. I've been very busy. Last night I saw the movie Invincible, it was kind of long, but it was pretty good. Not as good as Little Miss Sunshine, but not bad.

I'm going to do something in October that I said I would never do. I'm going to dress one of my dog's in a Halloween costume. Now wait, hear me out on this one. Petsmart is having what they call Tricks for Treats on the Tuesday before Halloween. People get to dress up their pets and then the pets get treats for doing tricks. Hence the name, Tricks for Treats. I swore when I first got Smokey that I would never, ever dress my pets up. However, my sister in law is going to bring my niece and nephew down to see all the pets dressed up, so I decided that I would dress up ONE of my dogs. Although, I considered dressing up both of them, one as a devil and one as an angel. Smokey would be the angel and Rocky would be the devil.

However, I decided that if I'm going to dress up a dog, I'm only doing one and that will be Rocky. I'm going to dress him in a costume that is perfect for him. He's going to be a Bad Dog. Take a look. Cute huh?
Anyway, there isn't a whole lot else going on right now. Nothing new or exciting to report.

Any other suggestions for what I could dress Rocky up as for Halloween?

Question

2006-09-09T17:39:00.000-07:00

Have you ever farted with such force that you were lifted off the bowl?

Marty I would like to hear your thoughts especially.

Smokey And The Tapeworm

2006-09-07T17:53:00.000-07:00

And no that's not the name of a children's book. Smokey has tapeworms. This is the most disgusting thing I have ever seen.

The segments of the tapeworm break off and he poops them out. Absolutely disgusting. Worms are extremely contagious among dogs. So, I had to treat Smokey for worms AND Rocky, even though he's not pooping out little flattened pieces of rice.

Did I mention how gross this was? This is just so gross. I can hardly deal with it. I just feel so bad for Smokey. He's a trooper. He'll be just fine. However, I will be having nightmares about this disgusting things forever. Well, until the next gross thing comes along.

That's all I have to say on this topic. I promise not to be so gross next time.

What I Did On My Summer Vacation

2006-09-02T15:06:00.000-07:00

Nothing. I worked. I got a puppy. But other than that. I did absolutely nothing. That's not as glamorous as it sounds. Trust me on that one. Sure, I sold my house and closed on it, but I didn't really do anything meaningful.

And now, the summer is over. I start school on Tuesday. Did I mention that I'm going to school? I'm working on my Master's degree. Very exciting I know. I'm sure that there will be more to come on this. However, if I don't visit your blog everyday, please understand that I'm working 50 hours a week, taking two classes and taking care of my two dogs. Please don't be insulted, I still adore you and will come see you as soon as I can! Also, keep in mind that I may be reading your blog, but not commenting.

Anyway, there is absolutely nothing exciting going on here. I hope that you are all having a very happy Labor Day!!

Dog Poop & The Second Date-The Dog's Version

2006-08-28T03:32:00.000-07:00

Marty was kind enough to re-write my previous post from the dog's perspective. I thought it was very funny. I hope you enjoy it as much as I did. Thank you Marty!!

I was home all day as usual and boy was I glad to see my bitch, Leave. She came home and was running around like a chicken without a head. She gave me something to eat and took me out to do my business.

I’m looking forward to a nice quiet evening but I noticed that Leave is getting all dressed up. All of a sudden the doorbell rings. I run to the door and start barking. She opens the door and outside is some shmuck. I’m not surprised cause I’ve seen a lot of shmucks at the front door. Leave goes out with this shmuck.

While she’s away, my stomach starts rumbling. Soon enough, they come back and Leave is putting out food for her and the shmuck. Between the looks of this shmuck and the smell of the food, I’m sick to my stomach. Finally, I lose it and take a dump on the kitchen floor. I was so embarrassed, I ran out the door.

When I was a pup, I did that all the time. But here I am beyond that stage and I did it. I really couldn’t face her, I was so humiliated. And she had company as well. OK, the guy looked like a shmuck but that was no reason to take a dump while he was eating.

So we get back to the house and this shmuck is still eating. I have a great sense of smell but to tell you the truth, I couldn’t distinguish between the food and the shit on the floor. How this shmuck was still eating was beyond me! I almost felt like crapping in his food to see if he’d stop eating, but I was in enough trouble already.

I saw this shmuck come by a few more times after that. Then he stopped coming by. I still feel a little guilty every now and then. But it’s a dog’s life!

Dog Poop and The Second Date

2006-08-23T17:02:00.000-07:00

I'm back. A great big thanks to my guest bloggers!! I'm always up for another guest post, so let me know anytime you want to be my guest!!

Now, back to the title of this post. Some of you know this story, but I'm going to tell it again, so there.

So, I met this guy online. We had out first date on a Sunday. He took me out to a really nice restaurant. He couldn't wait to see me again. We made plans for the next day for when I got out of work, he would meet me at my house. I flew home, walked and fed the dogs, changed my clothes and then waited.

He showed up right on time. We went out and grabbed some take out chinese food. We go back to my place. So far so good. We get back to my house.

This is the point in the story where I need to tell you what this guy was like. He was Monk. No lie. A complete germophobe. He washed his hands 20 times a day, he vacuumed his apartment everyday and took the trash out everyday. He does not like pets. He was a momma's boy. That part isn't really relevant but I thought that I would throw it in. Oh yeah, he also had no manners.

Anyway, we get back to my house and this is where the story begins. I never ate at my kitchen table and we were about to sit down at the table and eat, so before we sat down I wiped off the table. As I was wiping off the table, my doberman came shuffling into the kitchen. Now he had already gone to the bathroom so I thought he was coming in to say hello. So, I said hi baby, how are you?

The dog continues to walk past me towards the door. Now I had just finished wiping the table, my date was already eating. Yeah I know. I mentioned he had no manners.

So the dog walks towards the door and as he does so, he manages to take an enormous shit right there on the kitchen floor. I freak out and open the door and throw the dog out. My date keeps eating. Now I'm faced with a dilemma. See the dog was done with his business and was now running away because he was just let out and there was no fence and no leash. So my dilemma, chase the dog, or clean up the steamer in the middle of the kitchen. My date? Yeah he was still eating.

I opt to chase after the dog, not because I didn't want to lose him, but mostly because I was humiliated and it seemed like the only way for me to escape this nightmare. I catch the dog, I bring him back inside and yes the steamer is still there on the floor waiting for me. My date? He was still eating.

I go back inside, I clean the steamer. I wash my hands. I put my food in the fridge. I sit down at the table with my head bowed in shame. My date? He finishes his food and leaves the empty container on the table for me to clean up.

Now, I know what you're all thinking. Yes I did see him again after that, but mostly that was because he wanted to see me again. I ended up dating him for two months. He never brought up the steamer incident, but I told everyone. I think my brother nearly peed his pants when I told him the story. His snorting, chuckling response was, the poor guy was trying to choke down his wontons while the dog was leaving a giant wonton behind. It's not that funny in print, it was more funny because my brother was laughing so hard he couldn't spit out the words.

Guest Post #2

2006-08-19T14:13:00.000-07:00

Thank you very much to Mr. Fab who did a guest post for me last week. This week's guest post is provided to you by Marty.

Without further ado!!

Nose picking

This is a subject near and dear to my heart or rather my nostrils.

Do you remember in school when certain kids in the class would acquire a reputation for their nose picking talents? I still remember this girl named Daphne who used to pick her nose and eat her find. Yes, it’s gross. But the memory is still there. Hopefully, she’s abandoned this habit and is happily married or in jail. Who knows what early nose picking can lead to? I’m not sure if there’s been studies about the future of grade school nose pickers and what the future holds for them.

How would you feel if your physician was a compulsive nose picker in grade school? Or what about the President of the United States? After that finger has been in his nostril onto the nucular (That’s the way he says it, sorry) bomb?

What’s scary is there are still some people in adulthood who are still compulsive nose pickers.

One of my bosses is so disgusting that not only does he pick his nose but he leaves his find on some of the tax forms that myself and others have to review. How do you handle this? Do you alert the managing partner that his partner is disgusting. In my case no. The reason being because both of these guys are equally disgusting but that’s a topic for another post.

How can you help prevent CPN (compulsive nose picking)? Please make a gift to your local CPN foundation. Hopefully, we can cure this within your lifetime.

Guest Blogger # 1

2006-08-14T15:46:00.000-07:00

I have asked Mr. Fabulous to supply my very first guest post and Marty to supply my second one.

Without further ado:

In Appreciation of a Nice Rack

"Looking at cleavage is like looking at the sun. You can't stare at it long, it's too risky. You get a sense of it and then you look away!"

Jerry Seinfeld

I like boobs. I am not going to apologize for that. I think we men take a lot of undeserved crap for liking boobs, for looking at boobs, for sneaking peaks at cleavage.

“Hey, buddy, my eyes are up here!”

Maybe so, but if my dick was in the center of my forehead you wouldn’t be looking in my eyes, either.

Hey, I am not a pig. I am certainly not a sexist. I treat women, and men, with respect. Well, with as much respect as they deserve, depending on who they are and the circumstances. After all, a lot of people are douchebags, you know.

I don’t make catcalls. I don’t make rude remarks. I just...like to look at them as much as I can without getting caught. Or making it seem like I am looking. What we are talking about here, my friends, is appreciation, not degradation.

Wow. I can rhyme just like Jesse Jackson.

“Why would I be a leg man? I have legs.”

Jerry Seinfeld

I know that breasts do not define a person. I am nowhere near that shallow. Well, okay, I am shallow, but not that kind of shallow. I would never go out with a woman just because she had nice boobs. There are about a hundred things more important than that.

I don’t buy a car because it comes with satellite radio, but if it happens to have satellite radio, so much the better.

I don’t buy a house just because it comes with an in-ground swimming pool. But if it happens to have one, I will enjoy it on a regular basis.

Hey, probably my most favorite actress is Nicole Kidman. I think she is gorgeous. And I have bigger boobs than she does.

So I think, in my twisted little world; that entitles me to gaze cast an appreciating glance here and there.

Let’s put them on the glass here, shall we? We like noticing them, and you like when we notice them, as long as we’re not assholes about it. And that’s okay. It’s a beautiful thing. There is nothing wrong with that as long as we don’t reduce a beautiful, talented, smart, funny, accomplished woman down to a couple of glee globes.*

There is more to life than a nice rack, after all.

For example, Mrs. Fab and I have been together for a long time. And she…

Wait, that’s a bad example. She’s stacked.**

*That was a term brought up by a woman on one of my comments yesterday

**For those of you who are wondering, Mrs. Fab approved this post. I’m not stupid.

Stupid or Therapeutic?

2006-08-13T15:49:00.000-07:00

I'm trying to decide if what I did today was dumb or if it was therapeutic. My ex, the one that was abusive, lives about 20 minutes from where I am living now. I haven't not been up to that area or anywhere near there since he and I broke up 6 years ago.

Today I ventured up that way. I wanted to go to the mall up there, I had a coupon for a store that was up there and the coupon was only good for today. So I got up, got dressed, did some housework and then headed up to the mall.

When I started my journey, I never imagined anything would have gone wrong. The whole ride up I was dancing in the car and singing along to my CD. Suddenly, I got off the highway and started up a road that was all too familiar. I was looking at familiar stores, restaurants and various other things, all places I had passed practically daily over the course of my 4 year relationship, many of the restaurants eaten in.

As I'm driving up the road towards the mall, I suddenly became aware of the fact that I wasn't breathing very well, I was shaking and I was crying. WTF?? I had no idea that I was experiencing these things while they were happening. I looked down and noticed that the steering wheel was jiggling because I was shaking and that's when I became aware of everything else that I was doing.

I got to the mall, now practically in hysterics. I wasn't even worried about running into the asshole. I have no idea what I was upset about. But I was sitting in the parking lot of the mall crying and shaking. I couldn't get out of the car and I couldn't drive back home. What was a girl to do?

So, I sucked it up, and I got out of the car. I walked towards the mall, shaking, twitching and crying the whole way. Good thing it was empty, because man did I look like a freak. Anyway, I made inside the mall safely and off to the store. Everything melted away as I did my shopping.

However, as soon as I left the store and was back out into the mall I started freaking out again and constantly looking over my shoulder. I really hate living like that. Once I was safely back into my car, I took off for home. Let me tell you, I couldn't get out of there fast enough.

I didn't run into my ex, thankfully. But, I don't think that I will be venturing back up there any time soon. When's my next therapy appointment??

So, you decide, stupid or therapeutic?

Wanted-One Guest Blogger

2006-08-12T07:04:00.000-07:00

Even though I talk a lot, I don't have much to say. So as I cruise thru all of your blogs, I've noticed quite a lot of guest blogging. So, with that said, I would like to invite someone to write a guest post on blog.

Is anyone interested?

ENOUGH

2006-08-08T04:05:00.000-07:00

That's it, enough, I've had it. This is my blog, my place where I can say what I want, express myself and share my life with my friends.

This is NOT your personal battleground. I do not, nor will I start monitoring comments. However, I will not tolerate the insulting of other people in the comments or the battling back and forth.

Please take your battles to your respective blogs and keep it off mine. If you think I'm angry now, you're wrong. This is merely a friendly warning.

Thank you for your attention.

The Management

Stood Up+Blown Off=Extremely Foul Mood

2006-08-05T09:26:00.000-07:00

Caution-this is an I hate most men post. I love all my male blogger friends, so you are excluded.

Back in May I went out on a first date with this guy that I had spoken to many times. He lived close by, we went out, it was fun. You may remember the clown car guy post. Anyway, he didn't say much after the date, so I inquired to see if maybe he wanted to go out again. He said yes, but he wanted to meet me at 5:30 in the morning to take the dogs for a walk. Um, I don't think so. Then he wanted to go out after I got out of work, which at the time was 7pm. Now, when I get out of work, I have to scoot home, walk the dogs, feed them and then walk them again real quick. Now, that would bring me to about 8:30. I don't know about the rest of you, but after working a 10 hour day, I am not in the mood to first go out, especially on a 2nd date where you're still in the "impressionable" phase. Am I wrong here?

So, anyway, I was on vacation the following week from the night that I was talking to him and we agreed on the following Tuesday. Now, since I had contacted him, practically asked him for a 2nd date, would it be too unreasonable for me to expect him to call me or at least email me to make arrangements? Well he didn't bother to contact me and blew me off.

I had a date for today. We made the plans 2 weeks ago. I emailed him on Wednesday to make sure that we were still on. He said yes. I called him to make final arrangements as well as sent an email. He never bothered to respond. Not even to email me and make up an excuse. So now I'm blown off again. But he did read my email.

Why do men join dating sites if they don't want to actually meet anyone or go on a date? It's not like I even expect them to pay for me. I always offer to go dutch. WTF??

I mean, I'm not ugly, I have a great sense of humor. I'm fun to be around. I just don't get it. I had thrown in the towel previously on this whole dating thing, and then I decided to give it another go, and this is how it ends up.

All I have to say is, these losers can kiss my ass. I am going to take another break and just work, go to school and play with my puppies. At least my boys love me.

Speaking of my boys, Rocky graduates puppy class this weekend. I'm bringing my camera because she has little graduation caps for them.

Accosted At The Mall

2006-07-31T17:07:00.000-07:00

I was walking thru the mall trying to find Bath and Body Works. I love their Anti Bacterial Deep Cleansing Hand Soap.

So I'm trying to find the store and I'm minding my own business, when all of a sudden I'm accosted by this young woman claiming to be from Israel. She wanted to rub me down and clean me with some stuff from the Dead Sea.

So she exfoliates my arm and puts some lotion on and she's trying to talk me into spending an arm and a leg on her product when I notice that my arm is tingling and burning. I look down and see big red blotches all over my arm. Yep, you guessed it, I was completely broken out in hives. Nice huh? So I shove my now burning and itching arm in her face and tell her that I really don't need to spend a fortune to break out in hives that I'm able to do that all on my own for free.

What a pain in the ass. So I wasted 15 minutes with this crap only to break out in hives. What a pain. I finally found the store and guess what??!! It was right near where I had walked in. I went left and it was literally the first store on the right. DUH!

Oh well. Have you ever been accosted at the mall?

O Leave Where For Art Thou??

2006-07-29T05:46:00.000-07:00

Here I am!!!! A couple of people have contacted me to make sure that I'm okay and that I haven't fallen off the face of the earth. I'm here, I'm alive and all is well. Thank you very much for caring about me and checking in.

I thought with my new work schedule I'd have more time for blogging and other stuff, but it's just not the case. I have been quite the busy little bee.

I get home from work earlier, around 6 or 6:30 depending on how late I stay. I walk the dogs and feed them and then myself. I pop online and check the blogs and my email and then I shut off the computer. I spend lots of time playing with Rocky and Smokey.

Oh, mystery man, dropped off the face of the earth I guess. Oh well, I wasn't attracted to him anyway. I feel bad, but this is for the best. I'm really taking a break from dating right now. I've been working a lot. Also, I start school in September.

My boys are doing great. Rocky is the star of his puppy class which is almost over. He's now 11.2 pounds and has almost all his adult teeth. That makes me sad. But now he can give me his paw, do high five and low five. He is so damn cute, his puppy teacher wants to take him home and keep him. He is housebroken. It's been at least two weeks since his last accident.

As cute and sweet and smart as he is, make no mistake, he's all puppy. He got out of his pen the other day and proceeded to shred paper all over my apartment. I was so happy when I came home. Love it when the pup redecorates. Also, the little brat wakes up at 1:30 or 2:30 every morning to go outside, so I wasn't getting much sleep. I figured out how to get him to sleep thru the night, I've been putting him in bed with me. He sleeps until at least 5 when Smokey wakes us up. Now if I could just get Smokey to sleep in a little bit.

So, my ex has called and has texted me and I have ignored all of his messages. So he emailed me. He wanted to get together and hang out this weekend. HA!! AS IF. So, I ignored his email. You would think that he would catch on. I've ignored 2 voicemails from him and 4 text messages and now two emails. I think maybe now he got the hint. I am NOT hanging out with him this weekend. I made sure to make plans so that I didn't get sucked in. Just who in the hell does this asshole think he is?? Anyway, I hope you're all proud of me and my staying power of ignoring him. I do deserve so much better.

Not a whole lot for me to report. My apartment is nice and cool since I'm able to run two airconditioners now. I promise that the next time I blog it will be more interesting.

How is everyone else doing?

Had To Share

2006-07-19T18:55:00.000-07:00

My sister in law looked out her kitchen window and this is what she saw:

Make sure you look closely at what's on the grill. I know it's sad, but it's nature. We live out in the country here. If you've never been to NH, you should definitely come visit us!! The best time to visit us is in the fall when all the leaves change color. It's absolutely beautiful here when the leaves change.

Anyway, just thought that I would share this photo with you that my sister in law shared with us.

It's A Small World After All

2006-07-16T05:32:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was a rough day. The electrician did fix my electrical issue, but my brother hasn't been around to put in my new air conditioner. My apartment was a nice humid 106 degrees yesterday. It's sad when you sweat when you're taking a cold shower. I slept in until about 9:30 in my air conditioned bedroom with my puppy on my bed. Yes he likes to sleep with me.

Anyway, I went for a massage yesterday. My hair stylist does them and I got a discount for being a first time massage client. It was heavenly. I could have just slept there all day. After the massage I was very woozy and dizzy and light headed. She sat me down and just kept feeding me water. My hair looked like something out of the bride of frankenstein. But I still felt great. I came home and my brother was at the building and he put in my air conditioner in the main part of the apartment which is now much, much cooler.

I went to dinner and then to the movies to see The Lake House with my friend from work. The movie was very cute. As we were leaving a car goes by and calls out her name, she turns real quick and says, "OMG, that was my best friend from High School!" Another call goes by and another person calls her name out and she says "OMG, that's my best friend's sister, how funny!" The cars are now stopped and we keep walking all the while I'm teasing her about knowing everyone, when we pass the car with the sister and she now calls out my name. I look and holy shit, it's the girl that lived down the hall from me iin college. She says she has to pull over.

So we all get to talking and decide to go out for drinks. It was so bizarre. It turns out her former roommate works at my company. I'll have to look her up on Monday, and that this girl lives near me. So we exchanged some phone numbers and decided it would be fun to go out again. We had a blast.

Not much happening today, I should definitely do some ironing and Rocky has puppy class today. Did I mention that he's the star of his puppy class? Every time the instructor tells us what we're doing next, he runs up to her and sits down facing her. Every time she says, "I think Rocky just volunteered to go first." Then she proceeds to do the demo with him. He catches on usually on the second try. Then at the end of class, she asks me if I'm sure that I don't want her to take him home. She just thinks that he's the cutest. And of course he is.

Now that I've downed my second cup of coffee it's time to get moving. Have a great day!

Beware

2006-07-13T17:41:00.000-07:00

I'm starting to think that perhaps I do not have PMS, but that I'm just a bitch. If you value your life you will not agree with me on this. I'm feeling enraged, murderous and several other things that I cannot express right now.

My ex called yesterday, I don't know why, I didn't answer the phone, nor did I call him back. Score one for me. One of these days he will leave me the hell alone.

Today my psycho electrician showed up, finally. In case you didn't know, my entire apartment runs on one circuit. That's right, one. Which means that the circuit trips. Often. Oh yeah and I live on the third floor of a walk up and the circuit breaker is in the basement which means that every time the circuit trips, which is at least 3 times a day, I have to go down 4 flights of stairs to turn it back on and then back up 4 flights. Also, my apartment is like 200 degrees, which means that I pour sweat just standing still. So, as you can see, I'm having a lot of fun. Oh and my puppy is doing very well with his housebreaking. So well that he wakes up at 3 in the morning because he really has to go out.

Okay, back to the psycho electrician. He shows up this morning right before I left for work. He asked me to show him the different areas of the apartment where he should add a circuit. I show him. As we're walking around Rocky barked at him. The man turns to me and says, are they going to bark the whole time? I said, I don't know, I don't think so. He says, I'm not doing the work if they're going to bark. I just stand there with my mouth hanging open. So I say, if it's a problem, call the property manager and she will call me and I will come get them out of the apartment. OMG. Then he says, your brother owns the building right? I say right, he says, if the dogs bark at me, I'm going to charge him double. I was like, WTF??? You're kidding me right? So, I repeat the above statement about calling me to take care of things. What a pain in my fucking ass.

Then I come home and the asshole broke my one and only and absolutely favorite coffee mug. RRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. Rage is swelling, anger rising. I was so busy being upset over the coffee mug that I didn't take the dogs outside right away and Rocky took a really nice big piss on the floor in front of me. RRRRRRRRRRRRR.

I am not a happy camper. Thank G-d I have therapy tomorrow. I can't take it anymore.

Ok, truth is that I'm getting my "friend" in 2 weeks, but I am starting to think that it's not PMS after all, but just that I'm a bitch and I'm in a very foul mood. My sister in law said I'm just cranky and I ripped off both her arms and beat her with them. I have no idea why she would say that I'm cranky.

Hodge Podge Addendum

2006-07-09T17:25:00.000-07:00

I feel that I needou have to make some clarifications about my job. I love my company and have been with them for almost 7 years. When I transferred back to NH I took a job unlike any I've ever held with this company. I'm now in a sales position and it's hard for me to get used to, you have to be aggressive, pushy and nosy and I'm not any of those things. So, I'm having a hard time adjusting to the new job. The downside is that there is a freeze in my department and I am unable to look for another job within my firm until September.

At this point in time, I go to school, I'm raising a puppy and I work many, many hours. I have to keep working so they will pay for school and I have to keep working ridiculous hours because I have to be successful so they will pay for school and so that I can get another job within the company.

I wish that I could do some chores during the week, but there just isn't enough time and I'm far too exhausted. It's all I can do to wash the dishes and make my lunch for the next day. Some nights I'm so exhausted and it's so late when I get home that I don't even eat dinner, I just take care of the dogs and then I crash. It's a vicious circle. Soon my work schedule will be changing and I should be able to do some chores during the week.

Thank you everyone for your suggestions!

Hodge Podge

2006-07-09T08:00:00.000-07:00

I don't really have one topic to write about today, I have several.

First, we'll start with what ticked me off. I was contacted on that lovely dating site by a 50 year old man. Now, I have no problem with older men as I have dated them previously, but I have a problem with the older ones that contact me when they're not looking for the same things as I am.

To illustrate my point, this man contacted me and said he thought that we had so much in common. I read his profile and it turns out that we don't. So I email him back and tell him that I'm flattered that he finds me attractive, but I think that we're at different stages in our lives and that I want marriage and kids and that I'm not willing to relocate to Florida. He writes me back and says he's not looking for those things, that he is just looking for a date, a friend and a good time. I write back and say again, those are not things that I'm looking for and I wish him luck. He writes back and says, he is looking for marriage and he loves kids. WTF???? I mean come on. So I got annoyed and wrote back something a little less pleasant that contained his previous email saying he wasn't looking for those things.

On to my next random thought. My father left me and my brother scathing voicemails last weekend demanding that we call him back. Neither of us has called him back. When I say scathing, I mean yelling and screaming and telling us that he was annoyed by what happened when he came and visited us. I'm sure that he's referring to the fact that we told his fiancee the truth about him. I'm sure that didn't go over well. Perhaps they broke up. Who knows. If he didn't want her to know the truth he should have kept her in Florida.

Next topic. Mystery man and I have talked and have setup a tentative date to get together. I'm thinking that he may actually be one of the last decent single guys left. More to come on this as the date gets closer.

Next weekend I'm treating myself to a massage. I can't wait.

Now, for another topic that pisses me off. I work 6 days a week. My boss expects me to work between 45 and 55 hours a week. So, now my weekends are down to one day. On that one day off, I do my grocery shopping, housework, laundry and take Rocky to puppy classes. There has got to be more to life than this. There just has to be. No wonder I'm in such a bad mood all the time.

Anyone have any suggestions on helping me enjoy life or get more out of life?

This Is What Makes Me Smile

2006-07-04T04:21:00.000-07:00

I don't have anything to say, so I thought I'd show you what has been making me smile for the past month and the last 10 years of my life respectively. The last picture is of the big bad Smokey Bear hiding from the fireworks. Since I'm talking about things that have made me smile over the last 10 years, I need to include my beloved Zeke, may he rest in peace, as he brought tremendous joy to my life for 5 wonderful years. Although I'm still sad, I need to include him so that he knows he's never far from memory or my heart.

Zeke February 10, 1996 - February 20, 2006. RIP Baby, I miss you.

Happy 4th of July!!

2006-07-02T18:15:00.000-07:00

I know, I'm early, but whatever, I have time to blog right now.

I don't have much to report. The 4th is not an exciting holiday for me. I'll just hang around at home and relax on Tuesday, my day off.

Today I'm exhausted. I came home on Friday to find that my laptop was not working properly. I called tech support and the guy in India read to me from the manual. It eventually came down to the fact that I needed to reformat my hard drive. I spent some significant time reloading everything back on. What a pain in the ass. I can't find my MS Office CD and now I don't have Office on here and I need it for school. I refuse to go out and spend any money on buying another one.

Yesterday I took Rocky down to see my niece and nephew. He loves my niece. He loves to bark at her and chase her. We spent several hours with them and it really wiped him out.

Today I took him for his very first grooming appointment. The girl who did his grooming said he was sooooo cute she couldn't stand it and she just wanted to squeeze him. I asked her not to and then I picked him up a few hours later and took him to puppy class. He's doing so well. He's catching on after two tries. I'm so proud. And he's still so cute. His legs are getting long and he looks kind of gawky right now. If blogger would allow me to add a picture I would show you. But for now you will have to take my word for it.

So we had puppy class, then I ran through the grocery store and picked out and paid for all of my groceries in 17 minutes. And yes I had a full cart and had purchased all of the items on my grocery list. Impressive isn't it?

Today I made a decision. I watched the movie Last Holiday with Queen Latifah. I love her and I enjoy her movies. I think it's bcause she's a plus size woman, yet she's still beautiful and she's so funny. I kist love her. Anyway, I want a man like her boyfriend in the movie. If you haven't seen you don't have any idea of what I'm talking about. I don't want to tell, because I hate giving away movies. Anyway, I want a guy like hers. One that will do the things for me that he does for her. I cried during the movie. I thought it was good.

Anyway, it has been a very long day and I really don't want to go to work tomorrow, but somehow I'll manage to get through. At least I have Tuesday off.

I hope you all had a good weekend.

Color Me Surprised!!

2006-06-26T04:33:00.000-07:00

I am shocked. Imagine my surprise, I'm chatting on IM with a friend of mine last night when he reveals to me that he likes me and has had a crush on me since sometime last year. I was floored. I didn't even know what to say. He asked me if I had any clue and I said no and asked if there were any signs, he said no he's shy.

So, how was I supposed to know?? Beats me. But he told me. Then he called me and asked if I was shocked and I really and truly am. We talked about going on an actual date to see if we clicked. That idea works for me.

Now, I have one request, please don't email me, IM me or call me asking who it is. I'm not giving out any information other than that above. If there's more to tell, then I will, but for right now, this is all you're getting!

PMS Strikes Back

2006-06-25T10:55:00.000-07:00

Now someone has gone and done it. Someone has pissed me off to no end.

As if it's not enough that I'm already pissy. My puppy won't stop barking at me or at Smokey. He wants to play with us and I just want to rest. I have PMS cramps, which suck. They suck big fat hairy ass.

Anyway, some loser contacted me on the dating site. He claims to be a writing professor meanwhile his grammar sucks and his spelling is atrocious. Anyway, he keeps talking to me like I'm a moron. He sent me an email telling me all the same shit he told me in an IM, then told me that I could respond to the message by pressing the reply key. I think that the dogs could see the steam coming out of my ears when I read the message. Oh and he also told me that he hates to write even though he is a writing professor.

Let me share with you my exact message:

"Hi Doug-

I'm fine thanks. I know how to work my email, you do not need to give me instructions like I'm some kind of moron. I also find it impossible to believe that you are a professor of writing since you spell most of the words wrong and your grammar sucks.

No you may not call me and please don't write me again, just push the delete key and delete my information."

Was that too harsh? Come on, you can be honest, I am too worn out to travel to you and rip your arms off and beat you with them. I promise.

Run And Hide While You Still Can

2006-06-24T18:56:00.000-07:00

That's a picture of me. Yes it's recent. I have PMS. I suggest that you drop the chocolate, the pretzels and the ice cream and back away slowly. I SAID, DROP THE CHOCOLATE.

Most of the time when I have PMS I just get a little emotional and weepy. I cry at commercials (shut up) and movies. Mostly stupid shit. Then there are times when I want to rip people's arms off and beat them to death with them just for smiling at me and saying hello. Heaven help the people that just made eye contact. Don't get me wrong, I hardly ever get this way during that time. However, this is one of those month's where you don't want to know me.

This is why I'm so pissy this month. My actual start date is Tuesday, yet for the past two days I'm already bloated, having cravings and I already have the feeling like Aunt Flo has started even though she hasn't. Ladies you know what I'm talking about. Oh yeah and my boobs hurt. Those of you that haven't seen "The Rack" that's an awful lot of tissue and an awful lot of pain. They hurt when guys stare at them, that's how tender they are this month. Oh and when my lovely aunt actually shows up, I'm going to have awful cramps to go along with everything else.

Now that I have filled you in on the details, please let me know if you still don't understand why I'm feeling so pissy. But I will warn you, if I have to come over there to explain it, you had better have plenty of chocolate or chips or ice cream or you'll be sorry.

Now give me some fucking chocolate or nachos. Please I beg you, satisfy the beast.

HUH??? WTF???

2006-06-22T16:41:00.000-07:00

Today started out like any other. I slept in, I walked and fed the dogs, I lounged, I surfed the web.
I ironed and I watched Broke Back Mountain, shush, I was curious.

Then it happened, somewhere before dinner and after the UPS delivery. My father called, I didn't answer (it's habit). My father is not the greatest dad in the world, he's some where between, donor and he remembers our names and birthdays. However, he's my dad nonetheless. I sent him a Father's Day card and I called him. On Sunday. Today is Thursday. He called back and this was his exact message, "Hi, got your message and card, take care." WTF was that?? No thank you, no call me, no nothing!! WTF? Could it be that my father has washed his hands of me? How do you just say good-bye to your children? From here on out, I wash my hands of him and if I should need to speak of him, he will be "THE DONOR."

I'm so glad that I have therapy tomorrow. I don't think I can take much more. On the bright side, my puppy is so damn cute and I'm so happy I decided to get him.

I Survived!!!

2006-06-21T19:08:00.000-07:00

I spent the entire day here (see above) with my mother not to mention the car ride down and back and I'm proud to say that we're both still alive.

I took Smokey back to my old Vet's office in CT for his dental work. I was told by my new vet that he needed a dental and that it would cost about $600 and that he would need 3 teeth extracted. I took him to CT and they did the dental and determined that no teeth would need to be extracted and it cost me $156. I also had Rocky microchipped while we were there and that cost $30, up here in NH it costs $75.

We dropped the dogs off at the vet's at about 9:30 this morning after driving an hour and a half to get there, then we continued 15 minutes down the highway and went to Foxwoods. I lost $50, my mom just about broke even. She treated me to lunch and ice cream. I love my mom.

We picked up the dogs around 4pm and then headed home, which took about 2 hours with some light traffic, actually it was an accident, other than that, there was no traffic. On the way home, the University that I applied to contacted me to let me know that I had been accepted. Woo hoo, go me. I then went out to dinner with my mom to celebrate.

Smokey is doing very well after having been put under. He was a little dopey when I picked him up and pretty much passed out all the way home. In fact he's passed out now too. Rocky is pretty tired as well.

Rocky started his puppy class on Sunday. He was the only one that participated. There was a 9 week old, 2 lb Papillion that slept through the entire class and then there was a Boston Terrier that hid under the chair and shook the whole time. Rocky was active and vocal and he just wanted to play. He caught on fairly quickly to the clicker that we will be using for training. So it was good. We got some free samples. After class I took Rocky over to see my niece because according to her, she loves him so very very much and really really wanted to see him. Meanwhile, every time he got near her, she ran off. It was quite funny. He still had a good time and came home utterly exhausted.

Well, that's about it for now. Hope you're all doing well.

I've Been Tagged

2006-06-18T10:21:00.000-07:00

Marty has tagged me, so here you go, some things that you never wanted to know about me.

Five Things in My Refrigerator:

1. Grapefruits
2. I Can't Believe It's Not Butter Spray
3. Apples
4. Water
5. Milk

Five Things in My Closet:

1. Shoes
2. Shirts
3. Dress pants
4. Empty suitcases
5. Air conditioner

Five things in my Handbag/Wallet:

1. My PDA
2. My cellphone
3. My AAA card
4. Advil
5. My inhaler

Five things in my car:

1. Umbrella
2. Fleece blanket
3. Bottle of water
4. One of those batteryless flashlights that you shake and presto it lights up
5. Radar detector

I'm not going to tag anyone. Ok, that was a lie.

These 5 people have been tagged:

1. Dick Small
2. Heather from the Histronics of a Fat Housewife
3. Bobulah
4. Blair Bitch
5. D-Man

Enjoy!!

Today was a good day

2006-06-17T18:22:00.000-07:00

Today I didn't do much. I went to work and actually had a successful few hours there. Then I came home and had lunch then went to the movies with my mom, we went to see The Break Up. I loved it, very cute and funny, I recommend you go see it. Then my mom and I went out for dinner, she treated for both. I thanked her. We actually had a nice time, I didn't get annoyed with her, we didn't argue, we had nice chats. It was all very nice.

I also found out today that my nephew has the measles. He had his vaccine and had a bad break out. Poor little guy. He's so miserable.

Tomorrow I'm having breakfast with my brother for Father's Day and then Rocky starts his puppy class tomorrow. Since you asked, Rocky is doing well, he's doing well with his housebreaking and he's learning how to do new things everyday, like shewing on my rug, my couch, my boxes and anything else he can get his tiny puppy mouth on. Smokey is also doing well, he turned 10 on Thursday and this Wednesday he's having surgery, hopefully all will go well.

Other than that there's nothing else to talk about. I hope everyone is having a great weekend and if you're a father, Happy Father's Day.

Spider Man-Spider Man

2006-06-15T05:00:00.000-07:00

Look at me!

Your results:
You are Spider-Man

Spider-Man		70%
Robin		65%
Superman		65%
Catwoman		55%
Green Lantern		55%
The Flash		50%
Hulk		45%
Batman		45%
Supergirl		40%
Wonder Woman		30%
Iron Man		10%

You are intelligent, witty,
a bit geeky and have great
power and responsibility.

Click here to take the Superhero Personality Quiz

Anyone want to find out?

2006-06-12T14:31:00.000-07:00

How Many Licks Does it Take to Get to the Center of a Leaveit2cleavage?

That was my slogan from the slogan generator. Pretty funny huh?

By Request....

2006-06-11T18:48:00.000-07:00

Rocky coming out to explore his new surroundings.
Smokey and Rocky relaxing together. Don't they look alike?

Rocky wondering what this object is that I am pointing at him that keeps flashing.

These are the lights of my life right now, my two boys. My niece and my nephew are the highlights of my life, but these two come as a close second.

Anyway, not much else to say, so feel free to oooo and aaaaahhhh.

FWB

2006-06-10T13:23:00.000-07:00

No it's not a new TV network with some sort of amphibian as a mascot. It's Friends With Benefits. This hot guy from the dating site that I swore I was leaving for good has contacted me asking if I would be interested in an FWB arrangement. He just got out of a long-term relationship and is horny but is not ready for another relationship.

Now most people would be offended by this, however, I'm not one of those people. I'm trying to decide if I can handle this type of arrangement. I mean after all, I have needs too, needs that haven't been met in a very long time. A very, very long time. Anyway, enough of that.

The only thing that's holding me back is that I don't want to get hurt, in other words I don't want to get attached. Other than that, I could really go for this. I've been weighing the pros and cons.

Any suggestions?

I'm Waving The White Flag; Throwing In The Towel, etc, etc

2006-06-06T14:56:00.000-07:00

I have officially given up on men. It has come to my attention (today) that my ex got engaged right after we broke up. Ain't that a kick in the pants? So, he broke up with me a week after my dog died and then he got engaged a week after that. However, he continued to tell me that it wasn't over between us for a month and a half after we broke up. What a nice guy huh?

I suppose I should be happy that she's the one that's going to wind up with this asshole, but it still hurts like hell. This has really hurt my self esteem (again). It seems that I'm only good enough to be used and nothing more. Unfortunately, this isn't the first time that this has happened to me. It's more like the third time and let me just say that it doesn't get easier.

As of right now, I'm done. No more men for me. No more dating, no trying to meet someone, no more dating sites, no more nothing. I've officially given up. Good luck to those of you in relationships or those of you still pursuing them. But no me, no sirree. Perhaps I'll take a break from all online activities.

What really sucks is that I saw my therapist this morning, before I found out about the engagement of course and I won't be seeing her again for like 2.5 weeks. I think that I best be calling her back to see if I could move that up, I don't think I'm going to make it until then.

It's Looking At You!

2006-06-04T18:13:00.000-07:00

You may be wondering what that is and why it's looking at you. Well, except for Marty, he already knows what that is.

This is the coat rack that I saw when I was in London and didn't buy. I saw it twice and liked it both times and never bought it.

Marty, my dear friend Marty, went to London and purchased this coat rack and brought it back to New Yawk with him, then he shipped it from New Yawk to New Hampshire and here it is, on my couch staring at you. It will be hung up in my mud room as soon as my brother comes by the apartments. Although, it's so cute, I don't want to hang stuff on it, I just want to stare at it for awhile.

Anyway, I just wanted to share it with you. Isn't it cool?

Weekend Updates

2006-06-03T19:41:00.000-07:00

Today was my nephew's 1st birthday. So I spent my entire day over there celebrating with my family. He's so cute. My father flew in for the occasion with his fiancee and he met my nephew for the first time and we met her for the first time.

My father was his usual obnoxious self. I had the opportunity to talk to his fiancee alone and all I can say is, "H-O-L-Y S-H-I-T!!" I do not think that there will be a wedding. She was telling me all of the lies that my father has told her over the last two years that they have been together and also that when they fight my father's temper lets loose and he says these horrible things to her and then acts like nothing happened. I wanted to laugh, now hear me out before you judge me, because this is the father I was referring to. The father I grew up hating. She told me all the lies that he fed her, that my stepmother cheated on him, while that is true, he neglected to tell her that he cheated on my stepmother many, many times and also that he cheated on my mother and that he hit my mother. Also, he told her that he wasn't close to us because my mother poisoned us with lies. I looked at her and said, actually she poisoned us with the truth.

Long story short, she told me she knows nothing about my father and that the things that she does know, are lies, or so she found out this weekend. She plans on calling me sometime when he's not around to get the scoop. Boy I can't wait. My brother had a big fight with him this weekend and decided that he's not invited back. My sister in law broke out in hives and cold sores before he even arrived.

Oh and my car broke down. Yes, my brand new car broke down. I got off the highway and all the lights came on, the cruise control light started blinking and the car decided that it was not going to go over 5mph. So I drove the rest of the way at 5mph. That was fun. I had the car towed and then had to find a ride to the only car rental place that was open. At least the car is under warranty. It was just an added bonus to this great day.

The party was fun, meeting the fiancee was fun. Oh and my father actually came through and gave me a check for Rocky. My niece wants to meet the puppy. I finally told my brother aka my landlord about the puppy and he asked my niece if she wants to meet him and she does, she can't wait.

Rocky is a handful. He's cute, he's sweet and he's not housebroken, but we're working on that. Smokey still has his issues, but they seem to be getting along.

Anyway, I'm beat and I'm going to crash. Hope you all had a fabulous day!

Introducing....

2006-05-31T04:13:00.000-07:00

ROCKY!!

That's his new name. He responds to it and well, it was suggested by three people, so here he is. Also, it sounds like Smokey so that works out well.

How precious is he?

Thank you all for your suggestions.

Name That Puppy

2006-05-29T13:33:00.000-07:00

Ok, I brought the puppy home and now for the tough part, he needs a name. Please everyone post your suggestion for a name and I will pick the top three and then have everyone vote for their favorite. I'm very bad at naming pets, so please give it your best shot and please, no swear words!!

Thanks!! I look forward to reading your submissions.

Fireworks

2006-05-28T18:55:00.000-07:00

Unfortunately, I live close to the river front and that's where they let off the fireworks, I can see them from my apartment and hear them very well.

However, my poor Smokey is terrified of them. I think that this is one of those times that he really misses Zeke. Zeke wasn't afraid of anything. He would bark and growl at the fireworks and so would Smokey. Now that Smokey doesn't have Zeke here to show him that it's nothing to be afraid of, he's terrified.

So I'm sitting here typing when all of a sudden a 32lb fluffball lands on my lap and retypes my post. I asked him to move, he laid down on me. So, I picked him up and moved him, one of the benefits of him being so small and he decided that the safest place to lay was on my pillows. Ordinarily, I would throw a fit, but considering he's so cute and so sweet and so scared I let it slide.

Smokey sleeps on my bed when I'm not home, so I have placed an extra blanket over my real blanket for him to sleep on. I'm such a good doggie mom. I feel so bad when animals get scared. I tried to reassure him, but he doesn't get it. He just follows me around wimpering. What makes me feel worse is that this didn't happen when Zeke was alive.

I Have Issues

2006-05-27T12:55:00.000-07:00

But don't we all? Do you see the picture of the puppy? I went and played with him today. Yes he is as cute in person as he is in the picture, in fact he is much cuter and so sweet. I helped a family decide which one of two puppies that they should go with and then I named their puppy. I named him Pepper, they loved it. He was a cutie and very sweet too.

So, I mustered up all my strength and walked away. I thanked them for letting me play with the dog and the woman was very sweet and told me to think about it and get back to her. This puppy was born 4 days before Zeke died and I really think that Smokey would like another pet. Every time I mention Zeke he runs around the apartment looking for him.

So, I didn't get the puppy, then I called my father and yelled at him for cursing me with his love of animals and wanting them all. Back in the day, when you could actually do this, my father would adopt a dog, bring it home for a few days, bring it back thereby extending its life at the shelter in hopes that someone would adopt it instead of it being euthanized. Now, my mother is petrified of dogs and my father brought home a different one every week.

My father owes me 4 years worth of birthday presents. He told me to think about it and if I really want this puppy, he'll buy it for me to make up for all the missed years and now I just have to decide if that's what I want.

Let me just say that this puppy was healthy looking, very friendly, very sweet and very playful and now he's all I can think about. My father says to me, it's a big responsibility, um, don't I already have a dog?? Aren't I already taking care of one and don't I know what's involved??

Wow Look At Me Blog

2006-05-25T19:25:00.000-07:00

I can hardly keep up with myself. I know most of you blog everyday, sometimes several times during the day and I don't. But lately, I've been blogging way more than usual. I think it's finally happened, I have worse than no life. Just kidding.

I think that the blog gates have opened since my therapist (in our very first session) told me to let it out and write it down, whatever "it" may be. I knew I liked her for the get go.

So, another freak contacted me and asked if I would like to get together tomorrow and have sex. I declined. Then I told him that my life would probably be a lot happier if I was the type to just have random sexual encounters, but deep down I know that's not true. Although, it's hard to believe that over my screaming hormones.

I'm so sick of these freaky ass men. Honestly, and then I find one that seems to be a good one, and well, look what happens.

Anyway, what's new this week, I told off my father and my ex, so I can cross those off the list. I took my dog to the vet and he has an ear infection and he needs to have dental work. He's also going to be 10, this is especially hard for me this year because Zeke died at 10. So, I'm having a very hard time. I'm sure he will be fine, he's in much better health (that's me knocking wood) but still I worry. Besides, they have to put him under when they do his dental and there's always the (gulp) chance....ok, I'm not even going to finish that sentence, please don't anyone else either.

Anyway, that's about it. I'll check back in when something else occurs to me. Actually, I just thought of something, my therapist told me to call her in between appointments if I needed to and in my infinite wisdom, I said, NAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH, I'm fine. I've wanted to call almost everyday. But I haven't. I can wait another week. See, it's all good here.

And So It Ends

2006-05-24T18:39:00.000-07:00

I told my ex that I'm over him and that he better get over himself. He called and in a fit of rage I answered the phone, he asked what was wrong and I said that I had just had a fight with my father and then I said, "It's a good thing I'm in therapy or else I would kill someone." He starts asking me why I'm in therapy. I tell him none of his business. He gets all pissy and then tells me fine, he doesn't care about me. Then he says that he's there if I ever need to talk he's there and if I have questions he's there to answer them. Then he says, I know I'm part of the reason that you're in therapy.

I got all pissed off. I didn't sleep I was so mad. How dare he???

So, the next morning I texted him and said, just so you know, my therapy has nothing to do with you, I'm long since over you and you need to get over yourself.

So, today I got a text back from him saying that he won't be contacting me again. I guess some of you men that have been commenting about this being a control issue were correct. Now that he knows I'm over him, he's not going to bother with me anymore.

I don't know if I am completely over it, but so what, he doesn't need to know and now that I won't hear from him anymore, things should be getting better.

Here's Another Treat For You

2006-05-23T18:07:00.000-07:00

Once again I have found a man who has never met me, but loves me. Please, enjoy!

Hello... How are you doing today? I hope all is Cool...I went through your profile and i really likes all about you, kindly send me your email address, so that i can send you a mail, by telling you more about my self.

Why? BTW, he's 5'6" and 120lbs and he earns less than $15K a year. Yep, looks like I found me a keeper. Oh and here's his about me essay:

I don't know how to begin to express my appreciation for you. You mean so much to me--more than you could possibly know. I can't imagine not having you in my life. Our lives have become so entwined,that we simply can't exist separately anymore. We need each other like springtimeblossoms need rain and sunshine. We've laughed together, cried togetherand through it all we've grown. All along, I've knownthat there's a special quality about you. You have a magical way of reaching inside meand filling my heart with hope and happiness. You make me feel like I can accomplish anything.Thank you, friend. I couldn't get by without you.

My Therapy

2006-05-22T18:35:00.000-07:00

I started therapy today and all I can say, is that even though it was a meet and greet, I'm already starting to feel better. I'm sure that it's psychosematic, but still.

I like my new therapist. I can't tell you what it is about her that I like, but I like her and that's all that's important. We talked briefly about my abusive ex and my recent ex and my father. I'll be damned, my recent ex called about an hour after we were talking about him and my father called and hour after that.

I called my father back and he's like I tried to call you and I said I'm sorry we missed each other. Then he proceeds to tell me that my niece never received his birthday card and I said I never received mine and he said, I told you I didn't send one and I said, for the last four years? He proceeds to argue with me and then tells me that I'm wrong then tells me that I'm right and it was because he didn't have my address and proceeds to laugh. I say, I sent you cards for all those years and they all had my address on the return label. I sent birthday cards, father's day cards and holiday cards and I got none. He says, well you paid me back this year by not sending me one so now we're even. I tell him it's not about getting even, it's a principle and he says am I going to get a lecture and I say nope. From there we had a very strained conversation.

I'm trying not to let this get to me and for the most part it doesn't, I said what I wanted to, I expressed myself and now as my therapist suggested, I'm journaling it, I'm giving my thoughts and feelings a voice. I did not and I'm not going to return the call of my ex.

Can any of you men out there tell me why he keeps calling and why he wants to contact me?? He doesn't want to be with me and he has a girlfriend, so what's the deal???

Third Time Is A Charm-Or So They Say

2006-05-21T11:00:00.000-07:00

My father is getting re-married again. He's getting married for the third time to a woman that he met off the same dating site that I belong to. I hate to say it, but I'm not happy for him. I don't think that he should do it. His entire family is not talking to him because they think that it's a mistake. Did I mention that his second divorce was just now finalized? I noticed that my father is still active on the dating site while his fiancee has been off for well over 3 months.

Did I mention that my father cheated on his first and second wives? His second marriage ended after 20 years when my step-mother was cheating on him. Ain't that a kick in the pants? Anyway, his new wife to be, has a 25 year old crippled son that lives with her, my father has never had kids live with him. He and my mom divorced when I was a year a half. He is an extraordinarily selfish man. I think that he's just looking for someone to take care of him and this woman won't live with him unless they get married.

Well, I'm not happy about this union, I don't think my father is the type of person who should get married. It's a good thing that I am starting therapy tomorrow. I have been avoiding my father's phone calls because I have nothing positive to say and I'm afraid that I'll say something that I shouldn't.

Any advice on how I can deal with this?

Big Organ Donor-Last Post I Promise

2006-05-20T05:02:00.000-07:00

By the way, for all of you new readers and old, I never, ever, ever met this guy and have never spoken to him and he knows absolutely nothing about me. He did send me another email which I had deleted without reading because it started off calling me names and insulting me and I don't deserve that, nor will I put up with it. But, I have decided to share his picture with you since, well, I have one. Here it is for your viewing enjoyment!! BTW, he titled this picture, "Hot Child In The City"

Big Organ Donor Part Deux

2006-05-18T17:29:00.000-07:00

Here it is, his charming and loving response.

If you weren't such a boring lay with no experience you'd know that sex spelled with xxx's donates HARDCORE sex - obviously something you will never have the pleasure of experiencing. Your suppose to gag on those dicks not BITE them! Didn't your mommy tell you how to take it like a champ? You haven't learned ANYTHING from watching those Rocky movies! Your such a negative dumb fuck. Good luck in prison. See ya when you come into the city. Hug and Kiss for you. Andrew.

Charming isn't he?

This Post Brought To You By The Letter "G"

2006-05-18T04:23:00.000-07:00

Mr. Fabulous assigned me the letter "G" and I haven't yet played along. So here are my 10 things that start with the letter "G". Let me know if you want to play along too.

Gross- I seem to use this word alot. I get grossed out quite easily.

Green- I love the way a nice dark green lawn looks and smells when it's been freshly mowed.

Gary- I've never met anyone with that name.

Germs- I have to admit that I'm somewhat of a germophobe. I wash my hands alot.

Guys- I'll never understand them and I seem to have a love/hate relationship.

Grapes- I love grapes. They make such a great snack. But not the seeded ones.

Gekko- I dislike lizards, even the ones that talk with a lisp on TV.

Greek- I am Greek. I don't speak a word of it. Greek men can be very hot.

Grace and Will- Yeah I know it's backwards, shut up it's my blog. I LOVE this show.

Greedy- I hate greedy people and unfortunately, we live in a very greedy society.

And there you have it. The letter "G".

Big Organ Donor

2006-05-17T07:09:00.000-07:00

If you enjoyed the last one then you're going to love this one!! This asshole sent me this message. I'm including his name and telephone number because he will not stop harassing me. I have blocked him on the dating site and filtered his emails so that they auto-delete yet he won't stop sending them. So if anyone feels like calling him and releasing some aggression, please be my guest. Or, anytime you ladies feel like killing someone or releasing some venomous PMS please, be my guest and use the now and forever punching bag. Here it is. Brace yourself.

Couldn't view your email on Jdate. Not a full member. I don't bullshit when it comes to sexxx. I will be the best fuck you will ever have - and the biggest dick. Your gonna love it. I'm disease/virus free and expect you to have up-to date test results. I bet you'd you love to tswallow my cum loads down your throat after I've fucked the shit out of your beautiful ass. Mmmmm. Soooo goood. Hug and a kiss for you. Andrew. 646-320-3799.

Ok, now here is a proposed response courtesy of the Blair Bitch. Please feel free to put your proposed responses in the comments.

"First of all, it's spelled S E X. The additional x's aren't going to bringyou anymore luck in getting laid. Second, you ARE the biggest dick. Whothe fuck writes something like that to a complete stranger? You EXPECT meto have up-to-date test results? FUCK YOU. IF I were to get tests done, Iwould do it for me and no one else. Certainly not for a pig like you.

As for the rest of your message...put down the Penthouse forum and get back into reality. I guess you thinking talking dirty to a gal you've never met was a turn on for her, huh? I can see why you're still single.

Thanks for the number. I'll forward this message and your number around to all my friends so they can get a good laugh at your expense."

Why Do I Bother The Sequel

2006-05-15T17:02:00.000-07:00

Come onnnnnnnnnnnnn, you know it had to happen. Unfortunately, for me, it happened much sooner than I could have expected or hoped for. Here it is, raw and uncut. Please note that this one is 6'4" and 86lbs. I think that they are brothers. I deleted the email address to protect the stupid.

HELLO BABE,
It was nice to see your Prfile here...that reason why i am much intrested in you is that i really love what your profile says.It is really fascinating thats why i decided to drop a note for you.I wish i am the lucky man you needed and i care much about you....you tell me anything you want in a man and am gonna make it up to you.I have been searching for the past years..i was divorced about 2 yrs ago and i have a kid of 10yrs which he is not living with me. I like to be with friends and also in the midst of those i know and those i dont know,like to chat and have great experiences,love to travel alot,and also love to really assist others. I hate cheats,liars,unfaithfull people,and most of all pretenders. I will want to know more about you or if you can give me your phone number so that i can give you a call so that we can hear each other...or if you want me to come over there so that we can see eye to eye and talk things together..Ever since i got to know your profile,since then i have been having some irresistible feelings for you...(Sorry if this hurts you)just to show my feelings for you.Well,I will be waiting to hear more from you and i think i am fit to have you cos my feelings tells me so.....lol.you can also Email back on my yahoo Email acount .. @yahoo.com.hope to hear from you Soon..and i also if you have yahoo you may mail it to me, so that i can Added to my Yahoo here.. I will be waiting to read from you soon. Take care and have a great day ahead!!! Much Love from. Donnie

I especially like that he loves me, having never met me or ever received any indication that I know he exists. Someone save me.

Back Up On The Horse

2006-05-14T15:52:00.000-07:00

Last night I had a date. My first first date in over a year. I decided that it's been three months since the asshole dumped me and that it was time for me to give it another shot. Nothing ventured nothing gained right? So let me tell you about it.

First let me start by saying that he is a very nice, sweet, humorous man. He's only a few years older than me, 6 years to be exact. He's the same religion and he's 6'4". I'm barely 5'3".

We met at a nice restaurant but the wait was almost 2 hours long. We got into his clown car, and by clown car, I mean a clown car. The man is 6'4" and somehow managed to squeeze himself into this little tiny Honda hybrid car. Don't ask me how because I'm still not sure. I saw it, but I still don't believe it. We went to another restaurant, same wait time. I suggested that we go to the movies first. He agreed and off we went in the clown car.

We went to see "Just My Luck," with Lindsay Lohan. It was very cute and it was PG-13 which means that there was no nudity and therefore, not awkward or uncomfortable for a first date. I don't know how he fit into those seats. The movie was very cute and we left and went back to the first restaurant. There was a 10 minute wait. We had a very nice dinner. Good conversation, some laughs. Really nice guy. With a lisp.

I don't know if I want to go out with him again, am I being too critical? I had a nice time, he's a nice guy, but I didn't feel that instant click. Maybe I'm not ready. But I mean come on, WTF?? How long until I get over this POS that didn't deserve me in the first place? UGH.

Why Do I Bother?

2006-05-11T18:35:00.000-07:00

I belong to an online dating site. I don't know why I bother. I really don't. I'm going to share an email with you that I received. Here we go!

I have included the subject line and I have removed his yahoo id, even though he doesn't deserve that.

hi babe
Message:
Hi sexy, Has anyone ever told you how ravishing you look?Well if not i guess am the first to do so cos i cant just stop looking at your pics and thinking that you were MINE... I just started this online dating thing which my friend thought i shld try out and see if i wld meet the right person for me..I THINK I HAVE if you will reply me.. eheh...Am Mark but my friends prefer to call me Mko..am an engineer currently working for Shell Oil in Uk .Am from colorado but i schooled at Liberty University in the states for 4yrs.........am expecting to get you in my life if you dont mind someone like me ...If you'd like to get to know more abt me..my yahoo ID ..I will be waiting for you online now on yahoo.meet me

Yep, I got some keepers. Oh and by the way, he only weighs 96lbs. I could crush him or break him in half.

Lucky me. If I get any others, I will be sure to share them with you. I promise. I know that you will all be waiting with baited breath.

One Of My Worst Moments

2006-05-09T17:44:00.000-07:00

I can hardly stand to to talk about it, it was so horrible. But here it is. I went outside with my beloved Smokey to take him for a walk and I planned on putting my new license plates on while I was out there. After Smokey did his business, I was going to put him into the hallway in the apartment while I put the plates on, however, the car was right there and I decided to load him into the back seat and then go put the plates on.

So, we walked up to the car and I opened the car door and bent over to pick him up and put him into the back seat. I started to scoop him up as I have done thousands of times when something went wrong and before I knew what was happening he was crashing head first into the ground. Luckily I hadn't lifted him very far off the ground, and I did all I could to get him back down safely when all of a sudden he let out these blood curdling screaming yelping sounds. The sounds were making me sick to my stomach.

I finally got him down to the ground and there he stood with three legs on the ground and his front paw sticking out in front of him while he continued to cry out. I think that my heart actually stopped while we were standing there. He continued to limp around with his paw sticking straight out and crying. I scooped him up ever so gently and put him into the back seat of the car so that I could rush him to the hospital. I shut the door and started walking back to the apartment when I realized that I had to put the plates on.

I checked on him in the back seat of the car and he was just sitting there with his paw in the air. It was the most pathetic looking thing. I took him back out of the car and he was walking around on all four paws with a bad limp and then he went up and down the three flights to the apartment just fine.

Needless to say that I felt so horrible and that I have spent as much time spoiling him as I can and fussing over him. This was the worst feeling and even though he's okay, I've spent the last few days playing the incident over and over again in my mind, wondering what went wrong and wondering why I didn't just put him into the building like I planned. Why? Why? Why? That's what haunts me. I know that he has forgiven me for this incident, why can't I forgive myself?

And The Results Are In!!

2006-05-04T16:46:00.000-07:00

My Sister in Law did not have a stroke. That's great news!! Unfortunately, they have no idea what was wrong with her and why she continues to have headaches. Anyway, I just thought that you would like the update.

Thank you all for your kind words and thoughts, they were greatly appreciated.

If they ever figure out what's wrong with my SIL, I will let you all know. I think that we need Dr. House on this case, don't you?

Holy Scary Shit Batman!!

2006-05-01T16:07:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow night I'm babysitting for my niece and nephew while my sister in law has an MRI. Her doctor thinks that she had a stroke. She's 34. Hence the title, Holy Scary Shit Batman!!

Unfortunately, strokes run in her family, so does high blood pressure, which she also has. She's already had a CAT scan, next is the MRI. Hopefully this all turns out to be nothing. I just thought that I would ask for some extra thoughts and prayers until we find out the results of the MRI.

Once again the moral of the story is treasure those you love as you never know when they might be taken from you. Over the weekend we got to see cousins that we haven't seen in years. One of my cousins lost her husband, he was 40, he had a stroke while he was driving and crashed his car into a tree and died on the scene. His little girl was 6. Life can be so cruel.

Au Revoir! Adios!

2006-04-29T03:27:00.000-07:00

I'm off for the weekend. I'll see you all soon!! Mwah!