Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Agony

I took Smokey to the vet tonight and was told that it is time. They understand that I will do it when necessary and in the mean time they will try to help me make him more comfortable. Since this picture was taken in September he has lost 7lbs, he is 20lbs now, his eyebrows are all white, he has trouble sitting/laying down and getting comfortable and he has numerous accidents in the house. He can no longer hold it for 8 hours, it's lucky if he holds it 2 hours. We get up in the middle of the night, sometimes twice to go out. I clean up after him, I haven't had a full night's sleep in over 2 years. I do these things because I love him and I can't bear the thought of losing him.

However, I can't bear the thought of him being in pain. The Dr. said he is in pain and that with the tumors things will only get worse. He strains so hard to go to the bathroom he falls over. She said we could put him on 2 more medications to help with the pain and see if the antibiotics will help him at all. But I don't want to do that to him, he's been too good of a dog to let him be in pain or pump him with meds. They ran some tests to see if he has kidney disease and to see if by chance he has an infection that could be helped by antibiotics.

The results will be in tomorrow. My heart will be broken forever.

5 Comments:

Blogger marty said...

Smokey has had a wonderful life thanks to you, Leave.

I think you need to take comfort in the fact that you are doing/have done all you can to make Smokey comfortable.

8:11 AM

 
Blogger DutchBitch said...

Awww Hon, I am so sorry. You are in my thoughts... PPH

12:16 PM

 
Blogger LisaBinDaCity said...

I'm so sorry, Dear. Love to you and Smokey.

They are our children and we simply can't let them suffer. Just know you have been a great Mom to him.

Hugs.

8:43 AM

 
Blogger Charlie said...

I saw your comment on Koolio's blog so I came over to offer my condolences. Smokey was a beautiful dog, but you did the right thing by not letting him live in pain--that's the cruelest thing a selfish person can do.

We lost our little one last April and gave a new home to a three-year-old Pomeranian from a rescue group. There are so many good dogs who need human love and caring . . .

9:14 AM

 
Blogger Leave It To Cleavage said...

Thank you everyone for your kind words.
Charlie thank you for coming by. He was a beautiful sweet dog. He had it all and I will always miss him.

3:22 AM

 

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