Why Today Sucked

My boss is on vacation for a few weeks and she left one of the guys that I work with to do some of the things that she does. Now I didn't take this to mean that he was "in charge" of us since we are all on the same level. He is taking over her tasks such as approving letters, scanning the incoming mail and taking calls from assistants and stuff. Never did I think that he was going to be telling us what to do.

So it's been about 2 weeks and everything is going well and we're all just doing our job and stuff. Tolday he tells me to do something and does so in an email to the entire team. So I said, sure I'll do it, but I thought that we drew straws for this kind of thing. So his email back was pretty nasty and I said well, maybe you could have asked me to do it before you announced it to the entire team. Well, that was it. He started yelling at me in front of everyone. I was so humiliated. I ran out of there crying. I cried all the way home. I'm so humiliated I don't even think that I can show my face there again.

Unfortunately, I do have to go back to work on Tuesday. I was contemplating one of two things. One, calling in sick until my boss returns on Thursday. Two, I was just going to go in and do my job but not speak to him. It will be hard since he sits very, very close to me. I think that I'm just going to go in and do my job and ignore him totally and completely.

I'm really glad that this week has ended. Yesterday was the anniversary of my Grandmother's passing and I was very upset. I was feeling better today until this happened.

Well, that's it for now. I have some good things to look forward to. Sunday I'm celebrating Hanukkah with my family. And my man is coming over on Sunday as well. So that will be good.

So, how is everyone else doing?

Merry Christmas! Happy Hanukkah! Happy Kwanza!

Whatever you celebrate, I hope that it's very happy and healthy!!

I spent today all alone (I was a little bummed, but it turned out okay) as my brother and his family are in Syracuse at his in-laws, my mom is in NJ visiting my Aunt and my cousins and my boyfriend had a family thing.

However, my Aunt called to wish me a Happy Hanukkah and to thank me for my gift. Then she said, I bet you thought I forgot about you for Hanukkah and I said no I didn't think that. And she said, I booked our trip to London, that's your Hanukkah present, so Happy Hanukkah. I was speechless. I figured that she was paying for my trip, but I didn't assume it and I've been saving up. I'm still speechless. I told her that this trip could be my Hanukkah and Birthday present for the next 5 years and I would still be thrilled each year.

So that call perked me right up and tomorrow I'm spending the day with my boyfriend, who told me today that he can't wait to see me and spend the day with me. Yes I'm happy. I'm very happy. Oh wait, did I say that already? Anyway, I wish you all much happiness and joy this holiday season!!

Facts About Me

I noticed that a couple of my blogging buddies (LB and Trouble) have posted some facts about themselves and I decided to borrow the idea.

1. I'm not afraid of clowns, I'm afraid of bees and spiders

2. I cannot watch horror movies under any circumstances

3.I have a 9 year old crippled dog named Zeke that now goes for acupuncture

4. I have a 9 year old Sheltie that I have had since he was a puppy and I love him like he's my child

5. I've never been deeply in love

6. I think my mom is an amazing woman

7. My favorite aunt and uncle have also been like a second set of parents to me

8. Not a day goes by where I don't think of my grandmother and miss her so painfully much

9. There are a few movies that make me cry every time I see them and yet I watch them every chance I get

10. My favorite PMS food is nachos made with salsa, oozing with cheese and sour cream

11. I don't go crazy for chocolate

12. I own my own house and it's the second one that I've owned in my lifetime

13. I've owned 8 cars since the time I was 16 but I've never owned more than one at a time

That's it for now. I'm not that interesting. When I think of other things I'll be sure to keep you updated. I know that you will be waiting on pins and needles. LOL.

My New Pet

I borrowed this from my good friend Trouble

adopt your own virtual pet!

Out of the mouths of babes

My brother calls me this afternoon to say hi. So we're chatting and he tells me that he took my 3 year old niece to the mall. So they're walking around the mall and my niece sees Santa and tells my brother that she has to see Santa that she has something important to tell him.

So, they wait in line, they get all the way through and my niece says hi Santa, I have something important to tell you. So Santa says, yes, what is it? And my niece says, Sometimes, Princesses wear pants. Jasmine wears pants.

I got hysterical laughing. That kid cracks me up. My brother made up a song for when she says she can't do something. It goes like this, all you have to do is try, try, try a little harder. So my niece asks my sister in law to change the batteries in a toy and my sister in law says, I don't think that the batteries can be changed. What does my niece do? She sings to my sister in law, all you have to do is try, try, try a little harder. I laughed so hard my sides ached.

The kid cracks me up. She is so full of attitude and what not that I just crack up.

WHEW

Today was pretty tough to get through because I knew that I would be taking Zeke to the vet tonight. The only saving grace was that my man emailed me and called me several times throughout the day to cheer me up and to offer his support. It was very sweet. And all of your kind words helped me through the day as well.

So my man called me a few times and kept asking me to call him as soon as my appointment was over, I promised I would, but he called twice, once while I was on my way there and while I was still at the vet's office. I asked him why he didn't wait for my call and he said he was too worried and he would call me again later.

So here it is, my dog is 10 years old and given his crippled neurological condition he has had a very full life. Unfortunately, he is not doing well. He is now 69lbs. He is losing muscle mass, his muscles in his back legs have atrophied from non use. He is losing bladder control. However, if he did not have this neurological problem, he would probably live another 5-10 years because he is healthy as a horse otherwise.

My vet was just as teary eyed as I was when I asked her how much longer he has left. She is treating him with steroids which she is hoping will help him gain weight. If the steroids don't work, he doesn't have much longer. If they do work, he will have awhile longer.

So my man calls me while I'm still in the office and I explain all of this to him, he had already made me promise that I wouldn't put Zeke down until he got to see him one last time. After I told him everything he told me that when the time comes he will go with me and stuff. I told him that will probably be the sweetest thing that he or anyone has ever said to me or will ever say to me. He's coming over this weekend and he told me that we'll have some fun and get my mind off of this.

I don't think my mind will ever really let go of this. To those of you have lost pets my heart goes out to you. I agree with LB, they should live as long as we do, it's just not fair.

I'm Feeling Blue Today

Today I received a personalized card from my Vet's office, and when I say personalized I mean, they all signed it, but several of them who know me really well wrote me little notes and included hugs and kisses for the dogs. I thought it was so sweet. I wrote them a card to wish them a happy holiday and to thank them for all they have done for me over the past year.

The card is not the reason that I'm feeling sad. That picture of Zeke was taken when he was about 95lbs back in January of this year. Currently, he is less than 74lbs and is getting smaller, he doesn't finish eating anymore, he has more accidents in the house and he can hardly walk. He's almost 10 years old and I'm getting the feeling that his time may be up soon.

Let me tell you how I acquired my beloved Doberman. In the beginning of October of 2001 I was engaged to the most awful man on the face of the earth (that is a separate post for another time). By mid October of 2001, my engagement was off and I had a restraining order against said horrid human being. In December of 2001, I adopted Zeke (he came with that name) and for the last 4 years he has been my buddy, my protector and one of the very, very few that loves me unconditionally. In fact, to show my dog how much I love him back, I bought a house when I relocated to CT so that I wouldn't have to give him up. I'm so dedicated.

I don't know what I will do with myself if it's his time. While I still have Smokey, which will ease the pain, I will also have a big hole in my heart and a sick feeling in my tummy. I know that dog's don't live forever, but it just feels like a cruel joke that something can come into your life and bring you so much love, entertainment, joy and companionship and who asks for nothing in return except for your love, food and a place to live, and yet our time with them is so short. It just doesn't seem fair, I mean the jerks in our lives seemingly live forever and our beloved pets are ripped away after just a few short years.

I'm taking Zeke to the vet tomorrow, keep your fingers crossed that I will have good news to post about tomorrow.

What's That??

Oh Yeah It's an A. I got an A in my class. I got an A on the final and an A as an overall grade.

I am very happy and now I have a much needed break until January 2nd, that's when my new class starts.

Also, I got my new windshield today and I couldn't be happier about that.

I'm also very happy because I had a date with my man last night and another wonderful time was had by all.

Oh my man and I were on the phone to say good-bye for the weekend, he off to spend the weekend with some of his buddies, they're going to Canada and somewhere else to see a game and do some other stuff. He has had this planned since the summer and has been very excited. So I asked him if he was excited and he said no, he would rather spend the weekend with me (insert huge awwwwwwww here). I told him I would rather be with him too, but that I was sure he would have fun and he would see me next weekend. So we said goodnight and he said he would text me this weekend. I think it's a sin to be this happy....but I'm going to enjoy it.

That's all for now, I'm kind of tired and it's been a long week.

That Damn Dark Cloud

My brand new beautiful car has a crack in the windshield. GRRRRRR.

Sunday night the car was fine and when I went out Monday morning it had about a 4 inch crack coming from the left hand side. The car is only a month old. I'm taking it to the dealership tomorrow to see if they will cover it. But I'm certain they won't. Since I'm the kind of person that has the misfortune of having their windshield crack after only one month, then my misfortune will carryover to the fact that they will not fix it.

The upside is, that I have full glass coverage in my insurance and those windshield places will come to your work and do it there so there's no need to fret. However, this truly sucks.

The good news is that I'm having dinner with my man tonight because he wanted to make sure that we got together before he left for the weekend to hang with the boys.

Does anyone else think that it's really sweet that he wanted a picture of my dog sent to his cell phone so he could make it his screen saver?

The New Guy

I have decided that I will provide small details of my new guy as I see fit.

Tonight he came all the way over to my house because he really wanted to see me despite the fact that he was in the ER with his dad from 3:30 am until 11 am this morning. I told him I would have totally understood but he really wanted to see me. I really wanted to see him too.

So we went out to dinner and he's a very friendly guy so he and the waitress were chatting and she says, "You live in Massachusetts? What in the world are you doing in Connecticut?" And his answer, "I came to see her, worth every minute of the long drive." I know, awwwwww. I had a huge grin on my face after that. He says stuff like that all the time, it wasn't just to impress.

Tonight I said those 4 little words to him. "I Really Like You." To which he replied, "I Really Like You Too." How awesome is that?? LOL. We're well on our way.

Tonight I pointed out that we weren't going to see each other for a few weeks as he has a trip planned with his friends this weekend. I told him I was going to miss not seeing him and he decided that we were going to have dinner this week. He's so sweet.

Speaking of sweet, we were in my room watching TV and my dogs had to go out and he told me he would take care of it. He went downstairs, took the cone off of Zeke, took both dogs outside (it was freezing out last night) came back inside, gave both dogs a cookie, put Zeke's cone back on and then came back upstairs and gave me a massage. I told him he was wonderful, he said nah, just thoughtful, I thought you could use a break.

Anyway, that's about all I have to say for now. Except that I'm very happy.